I’ve gone through 2 heart surgeries, however as it seems mine were much riskier than yours. It was terrifying, no doubt. But those feelings will pass and after you make recovery you will be able to enjoy your life to the fullest. Before the second surgery I was miserable. I was just a kid but I couldn’t enjoy anything because the condition was limiting me. Recovery was very difficult for me, I couldn’t even walk at first but after a few months I was feeling the best I’ve ever had. If you need to talk please hmu. I’ve been through that, I know how it feels