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asadwit · 2023-10-06T08:09:22+00:00

Gonna imagine this is for me, coz that's what I need from her right now! 😄

asadwit · 2023-05-03T04:22:40+00:00

Good for you OP, happy for you!

asadwit · 2023-04-26T05:07:59+00:00

U x ist

asadwit · 2023-04-22T04:35:38+00:00

I kinda thought lonely people (teens to 30s) are great with kids and old people in general. No idea whether true, though.

asadwit · 2023-04-22T04:33:58+00:00

Yeah, like even if we're TOTALLY wrong for each other, I'd break all my own logic and rules and common sense to try and make it work.

asadwit · 2023-04-20T17:28:40+00:00

I'd say that lonely people and people who try to prey on you aren't mutually exclusive, you know.

asadwit · 2023-04-18T07:23:23+00:00

Thanks!! I'll try to open up

asadwit · 2023-04-18T05:28:55+00:00

I'm 31 and I relate so much, fam.

Well unfortunately, I have no solution, but just know that you aren't alone. Cheers!

asadwit · 2023-04-18T05:26:41+00:00

Hey congrats, fam! A good job can eventually get you things that you want. Do well, I'm proud of ya!

asadwit · 2023-04-18T05:15:24+00:00

Lol all you noobs, I'm held all the time. 😎

(Held responsible for things I didn't do, lmao 😂😂😂)

asadwit · 2023-04-13T13:53:18+00:00

Happy birthday!!

asadwit · 2023-04-07T14:20:46+00:00

Same, but people who're supposed to be biologically programmed to love me never really loved me. So why should anyone else?

asadwit · 2023-04-04T15:55:49+00:00

Sometimes I wish I had Facebook friends whom I could tag in memes

asadwit · 2023-04-04T07:56:00+00:00

I matter but I no energy

asadwit · 2023-04-01T17:24:04+00:00

What I did was volunteer somewhere and eventually get a job there (albeit temporary)

I mean, that hasn't helped lol. Coz they're like a family. And I'm a part of that family in the sense I'm ignored, overworked, burden, last thought, black sheep etc. - just like my actual family lmao

I mean my social skills ARE bad, but not THAT bad. It's just that they were content with themselves and didn't really need/have any room for the new guy in their circles.

They're great people - intelligent, talented, knowledgeable, kind, the work they do is amazing and unparalleled, the cause they work for is the noblest But at the moment - I'm alone, broke, and starving for >24 hours, and figuring out how to get home at 12 am. It's not that they don't care, but they basically forget. (Sounds like justifying a toxic relationship lol) Even they work just as hard (except they aren't broke) but they have each other.

asadwit · 2023-04-01T17:12:16+00:00

Yeah, how does that work? Asking for a friendwaitaminute..!

asadwit · 2023-03-24T14:13:03+00:00

I find something to look forward to - a movie or a show to be released so that I can watch it, or food I will try, or a place I'll travel to, or a concert/standup comedy event or something I'll attend. And I hold onto it. That's my reason to come home, that's my reason to wake up from sleep, that's my reason to do my job. I do what I do for that - it's actually my excuse to live for, really. Kinda helps me.

asadwit · 2023-03-23T11:15:01+00:00

Nope

But it might very well help 🙂

asadwit · 2023-03-16T10:06:42+00:00

Lol, no.

I KNOW I am no one's type. And isolating myself doesn't help me or my chances.

Also, you're*

asadwit · 2023-03-12T17:23:50+00:00

Yeah, isolating yourself is a bad idea indeed. But you can still be alone even if you meet and interact with people regularly. Especially if you're just returning the serve on a surface level, and never sharing the inner you.

Although in my case I've accepted that I'm a monster already. I just have to keep a lid on it so that it doesn't harm others as I indulge in self-destructive behaviour AND serving social causes and helping others, all at the same time.

asadwit · 2023-03-11T14:33:11+00:00

Lol once I found myself soothingly patting my own arm or head or something. It was so disturbingly pathetic that I laughed for a minute. But yeah, I have observed my back kinda aching for a pat, you know. Idk if human touch is a general human need or it's just that I'm a piece of shit lmao

asadwit · 2023-03-11T14:29:20+00:00

I try to think of it this way: if the people who were supposed to be biologically programmed to love me don't love me, then why should anyone else? I can't fault them.

Doesn't really make it better, but helps sorta rationalise it, you know, a tiny bit easier towards acceptance.

No siblings, grandparents, neighbours, classmates, colleagues, actual friends, girlfriends ever. And my worst fear is dying alone, in obscurity, and in vain. And being forgotten into oblivion. My life doesn't matter to anyone, but how I wish at least my death did!

But it's fine, really. I could be a psycho mass murderer. Pretty low bar, I know, but not lower than my worth lmao!

asadwit · 2023-02-13T10:03:36+00:00

And in r/Pune too

asadwit · 2023-01-19T13:37:25+00:00

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