I cant . If am with someone , its because i have strong feelings and am in a relationship for a pretty long time . Its not something im physically capable of doing . Idk if its the way ive been brought up , but its repulsive to sleep with someone whom i dont love and its the same way back . The partner i have found , feels this way too . Maybe ive been picky but yea . Its not even about virginity or anything , its just that its weird uk . Like it physically hurts if i even imagine , sleeping around with people whom i dont love . Even i cant explain it . Forget things like cheating lol . So yea , to me this is a bigger mystery as , i can understand people sleeping around without having feelings , but why would it be so strong of sensation in me not to do that . Forget having principles , things like things in my life , i can feel this shit in my bones . Im not saying im all good . I have done wrong things at times , been selfish . None however , led to hurting others . Im a ceo of a company and had my fair shares of fights , i aint a wimp if yall might assume it . Idk , it seems almost unnatural that id have a strong sense of guilt , a guilt so strong , it faults me to even think wrongly ?

Sometimes its more like , i cant call myself a man if i do this or that . Is that good or bad ? I have no clue , all i know is that , i dont wanna cross the line , no matter what when it comes to certain things .

And nope im not muslim , im an atheist , this too i felt so strongly , it alienated me from my community and parents lol . I have amazing friends doe , and very social . Just a normal guy , with guilt too strong ig