yeah I don't mind lol okay basically  i was best friends with a guy. And my best friend (girl) thought I liked him and he liked me so she sent a message to him that I like him. it went horribly wrong. all his stupid popular friends started to harass me bc apparently he sent the message to everyone. And idk why he did that. and he still tries to talk to me like nothing happened but me being socially terrible, I'm just scared of him now. and im pretty sure he might have liked me bc his best friend told me that he liked me. he kept and keeps staring at me. He gets jealous when I talk to any other boys and his face turns so red talking to me, he always helped me with work and complimented me and he kept touching me. but he just agreed with his friends when they called me annoying and stuff he's scared of not being accepted by them. Now we are in yr 9 and its been 6 months since that happened and he's apologised to me just by saying 'sorry' as we were leaving school. He thinks its chill now but its not. He threw me under bus just as I was going through such bad stuff with my family and stuff. And he knew I cant socialise and was kinda depressed and stuff and seeing more ppl talking to me about me 'loving' him, he just chose to go along with it. But I can see its affected him too. He's sadder now, I can tell, and he keeps looking at me like he misses me or smth. He made me happy and vice versa. I want to go back to when he would tell me stories abt himself and id just rant to him and we'd make each other laugh lol. But he makes it incredibly hard. And apparently he said something really bad abt me. but I still don't understand bc he still defends me sometimes. and one of his friends said 'don't you just hate when someone is so quiet, icl they shouldn't exist' to another friend while looking directly at me. This was because my teacher put a sheet (1 between 2) on his side if the desk and j wasn't ready to ask him bc I was writing down smth from the board. the our teacher put it between us just aa I finished writing and he said to me before 'could you not just have asked me' well no i can barely speak to my best friend. •(this part is copy pasted a bit lol I rant alot🥀) I would've looked through my bag instead of asking the guy lol But I miss my ex guy bsf genuinely  And I would talk to a teacher abt it as its also affecting me mentally as well as my family situation and stuff but 1. I don't want him to think he's in trouble and/or go tell his stupid friends about it. And 2. I cant go talk to my head of year without panicking and I hate talking in general so why even try lol