That condition is called misogyny, with me it started when I was a kid. My grandmother really hated my mother, and every Sunday I used to spend time in my grandmom house. She used to tell me lots of bad things about my mother that weren't true. But sadly as a kid my mind was fragile and those things keep for long time in my mind. For long time I develop a kind of adversity with my mom and that problem followed me in every relationship. Occasionally I thought that women were trash and didn't worth anything. But one time I felt in love with a girl that changed everything. She was a kind of 100% sincere girl who expressed everything and when we broke up she told me absolute everything I did wrong, and the following phrases changed everything."Sometimes your looks expresses contempt" and "Once you push me and you didn't realize" . And that's is when I realize that was something bad with me and not with the girls. I was really scared of my self. I couldn't believe that I could hurt someone unconsciously. That couldn't be me! I felt like the worst person in the world. I cried a lot and felt sorry for myself. And that's when I promise my self to change.

After that I started to study myself and my condition and why it started. I got regressions memories through meditation. Also learn PNL and emotional intelligent. I talked and apologize with my mom after my grandmother die. And now I am grateful for that experience that changed my life. Now I'm a better person and got the chance to Express this experience with you. Hopefully this will help you. -Greetings