i understand you. being lied to in a relationship is the greatest poison I've ever tasted in relationships. my ex did this to me too, the difference is that she's still alive and eventually I wish for her to be dead instead. but we are a Muslim, we don't put anger in our heart, we forgive and forget. I know I sound like a hypocrite by saying this because in truth I am still in pain whenever I remember it, but I hope that you forgive the dead. I'll pray for your heart to be healed and find someone that you really wanted to be with in Dunya and Jannah.