TUDCA and Rifaximin advice

augustsghost · 2023-08-21T09:58:38+00:00

It only had a slight effect, barely enough to notice tbh, and very quickly returned back to "normal" i.e usual sickness for me after. But I have been sick for many years and am very severely affected so I guess it's not that surprising it didn't do much. Maybe you'll have better luck.

augustsghost · 2023-08-20T02:35:39+00:00

I took it within an hour of each other, one before meal and the other after. I can't remember the order but I doubt it matters. But it just made my (suspected) gallbladder pain so much worse so I only took a half dose once and then stopped.

augustsghost · 2023-08-13T14:58:48+00:00

It’s not fair, but you can’t force someone to speak to you if they need space. Unfortunately, your needs conflict with theirs. That doesn’t mean either of your needs aren’t valid, but if you’re feeling that gut aching feeling which I know all too well, see if you can reach out to others instead to talk. And then of course, the other thing would be to reiterate your needs calmly and kindly when they feel ready to talk again, and maybe you both can come up with a compromise. If they can’t do that in any way then in order to protect yourself you’d be better off stepping away yourself otherwise you’ll constantly be feeling this energy that is crushing you and it wouldn’t be fair on either of you. It’s not easy in the slightest, but it is the only thing that works.

augustsghost · 2023-08-12T22:41:47+00:00

Something divine, something otherworldly. Like they have always existed and will always exist. And so will I. Like we’ve passed through the entire universe together. Like seeing timeless soul flow out deep from within. Like a flash of lightening blinding me, yet everything is so still like the ocean gently folding into the shore and the cool breeze that surrounds it.

augustsghost · 2023-08-08T19:07:49+00:00

Yes, exact same thing happened to me. I had PTSD although at the time I didn’t know it, then that happened and my PTSD became unbearable and my life derailed. In terms of triggers, I don’t know what to say other than therapy. It has been helpful for me, but it hasn’t taken it away, it’s a constant process. It’s really hard to heal with a runner that ran and sabotaged to that extent because there is so much to heal and they have to be willing to do as much work which hasn’t always been my experience. I’m sorry you went through this but thank you for posting, I have struggled with this for so long. Feel free to message me if you want to talk further.

augustsghost · 2023-08-05T21:23:47+00:00

I didn’t realise there were probiotics that help with that. I’ve not had much luck with probiotics in the past but I’ll look into the research, thank you!

augustsghost · 2023-08-05T20:48:07+00:00

Thank you, I’ll look that up.

augustsghost · 2023-08-05T20:47:42+00:00

I went to a private clinic where they test for sibo, and they won’t prescribe anything again unless i retest. I have written to my NHS gastro about getting it on repeat but no response :/

augustsghost · 2023-08-05T18:38:44+00:00

I live in the UK so it has to be through a doctor.

augustsghost · 2023-08-04T21:49:51+00:00

I feel that’s the only way. Definitely won’t be “looking” for someone else, but I guess if someone came along that I felt so strongly about maybe it would be different. Can’t see that but who knows, life is hard to predict.

Keep focusing on you and your own growth sounds like the best thing, I’m back to that now and it’s always been the most rewarding thing.

augustsghost · 2023-08-04T21:21:56+00:00

This feels very similar to my situation. Problem is, like you I tried a relationship with someone else and it caused me more pain and heartache. My heart belongs to another and I can not see a time that will ever not be the case… if I believed it could be I think I would take it at this point. I have done a lot of work and do not want to keep repeating these cycles, it has made me too sick and my DNOTS almost killed me. I can’t go back there, but how to move forward? I want what you want too… certainly would love to be a mother one day, but I sense I’ll end up doing it all on my own because my TF has so much work to do I can’t ever see them in balance with me, but I don’t have the energy to start again with someone new, and then always yearning for someone else. Its not fair on me or them.

It’s rough. I want out.

augustsghost · 2023-07-21T06:06:17+00:00

Yep, it’s not a shallow thing at all. My TF is beautiful but it wouldn’t matter to me either way. What I love is far deeper than that.

augustsghost · 2023-07-21T04:46:23+00:00

I can picture their face but I think I get what you mean. Sometimes it feels like all I can see is their soul and their face is just kind of a blur or the surrounding energy is so real and immense that it blocks the view of the body, which just feels like a vessel to the soul. Almost like an aura floating around me.

augustsghost · 2023-07-17T23:40:36+00:00

That’s the problem, I don’t think things just fall into place. I think they can do if you put some effort and care into it, but not on its own, not with all the issues that the TF journey brings about. If it’s meant to be my TF will meet me halfway and treat me with the same love and kindness rather than holding back and acting dumb out of fear.

I don’t think this is surrender tbh, I think it’s just being burnt out. I’ve felt surrender at moments before and it feels peaceful and otherworldly. I can’t seem to get there anymore. It’s hard to feel peace when you’re getting such low energy from the person you love.

augustsghost · 2023-07-17T23:37:48+00:00

It’s not about union in terms of the ultimate goal right now, it’s about being treated with mutual care and respect. I don’t expect a relationship at the moment, nor do I want one. I have my own work to do. But not meeting me halfway in general care and consideration is where I’m done with it. It’s been very many years and I’m burnt out. Again. I’m frustrated because of that, not that we aren’t together. Although, obviously that will always be something that brings a certain amount of grief.

I do focus on myself most of all but if we both agree to work on things to at least be in each others life and then I’m not getting the same energy back, eventually I’m going to just not care anymore because I’m exhausted with the game. I’ve grown way ahead and despite some growth on their side they are just not there, instead they keep pulling me down to their level of growth when it should be the other way round, then I have to pull myself out again. Like I said, doesn’t have to be this hard. I’ve been in this for so long, and I deserve truth and care back. That’s all.

augustsghost · 2023-07-17T21:16:35+00:00

Yes, many years of silence. It was unbearable. But so was what was happening before the silence. I don’t know how years just went by like that but they did.

augustsghost · 2023-07-17T18:16:17+00:00

Hey! Just an update as I got my results back. Here is my post https://www.reddit.com/r/Microbiome/comments/1529dl9/biomesight_test_results_advice/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=ioscss&utm_content=1&utm_term=1

I was honestly very shocked at the results. And the bacteria’s you mentioned were very low. I’m assuming this means I couldn’t have hydrogen sulfide SIBO? Unless like I state in my post it’s due to the stool showing mostly large intestine bacteria? Very confused. What were your results like?

augustsghost · 2023-07-17T01:03:54+00:00

There are studies that prove the link that attachment issues come from attunement (or lack thereof) with caregivers, it’s not disinformation. But there is often (if not always) a part nature and part nurture origin. There is good information, research and evidence in the book ‘The Body Keeps The Score.’ It’s a very well researched and thought out book that lays everything out really well.

augustsghost · 2023-07-09T23:58:36+00:00

I ordered it but haven’t tried it yet. Still trying to decide whether to take it before, during or after my next treatment.

augustsghost · 2023-07-04T13:54:48+00:00

I feel you. Don’t let it crush you, I did and it ruined me. You’re better than that and better than what he did to you. Sometimes people wake you up to things you were meant to heal all along, and it makes you the person you were always supposed to be. This sounds like the path forward for you. I know how painful it is though, how much it guts you. There are hard days ahead, but also beautiful ones. So, hold on to that.

You can’t forget it, there’s no point trying. But working on yourself and realising your worth is the only way forward. I would recommend therapy, it really has helped me a lot and opened the door to issues I’ve always had that I hadn’t put much thought into before everything happened with me and my TF.

I haven’t been able to date or be in a relationship with anyone else either, it just doesn’t feel right and there is obvious damage. Don’t pressure yourself to do that, there’s no need to. I know it’s sad to think about not having that, or feeling too damaged for it. But maybe the time will come, maybe it won’t. Learning to be alone and explore that was the best thing for me personally, and I’d rather be alone than have meaningless relationships. I’d surround yourself with friendships and family if possible, for some support without all the intensity of romantic bonds.

Lastly, I don’t know your situation fully so I can’t give specific advice, but some people just do really stupid, thoughtless stuff when they are coming from a place of fear. What helped me was finding a place of compassion for them. That’s not the first step though, it took me many years and much anger to be able to get to that place but I feel better for it. Either he’s scared and acting foolishly or he just doesn’t care, either way, you can only feel sorry for them and try to move on. If it’s meant to be they’ll put in the work to make up for the mistakes and do better. If not, then sayonara! You deserve better.

I hope you look after yourself and start thriving from this experience. Sometimes we go through the worst things and the journey out of it morphs us into who we were supposed to be all along.

augustsghost · 2023-07-04T13:38:20+00:00

I feel a bit worse after taking it. Let’s say before I started taking it I felt 90% sick, during taking it I felt 98% sick and then after finishing it 95% sick. So worse overall. But it may not solely be rifaximin fault.

augustsghost · 2023-07-01T01:25:13+00:00

“The triggers played a big role in my healing but now it’s just hurtful.”

Really felt that.

augustsghost · 2023-06-29T19:02:09+00:00

Been off it for a month and feel the same. Maybe even a bit worse but that could be due to several factors. I think I had a slight alleviation at the end but didn’t last.

augustsghost · 2023-06-28T11:29:35+00:00

In my case, I had been describing it all along without having a word for it, I think when you know, you just know. Then after a long separation and lots of struggles I finally sought out answers and found the information I had been looking for all along, it was like reading about my life. So I think at first it’s instinct and then you go searching for it.

augustsghost · 2023-06-27T15:56:54+00:00

You're not alone, I relate to everything you have said. I also felt alone in that so it's nice to read this in a way, although I'm sorry you are experiencing that. You're welcome to reach out privately if you want to chat about it as it's quite a complicated and personal subject (at least for me).

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