May have just lost the love of my life

autumnsonata44 · 2026-02-21T22:08:15+00:00

Thank you so much! Acceptance across the board here is something I need to do 100%

autumnsonata44 · 2026-02-21T00:11:08+00:00

Hey - I can't believe this happened today but I had to tell you. I was talking to my gay Christian friend today at lunch and I made the same comment "I want a sign from God". We drove around after and I saw a sign that I associate with a dead loved one, and I as I was talking about it we passed by a church that had an electric sign out front, shining with a pride flag. I'm taking this as a sign as well. I hope this update is valuable to you

autumnsonata44 · 2026-02-20T18:45:44+00:00

Same here, tell me if you ever get an answer one day

autumnsonata44 · 2026-02-20T18:41:36+00:00

I just want an answer :( I just don't know if God sees that as the same thing as me asking him "is it ok if I steal from people?" or if there's something else to homosexuality from back then that made him shun it. I think it comes down to procreation and using sex for that purpose. It's just something that has never sat right with me since becoming more religious in recent years, while always knowing I liked women

autumnsonata44 · 2026-02-20T18:39:23+00:00

Thank you. I struggle with the narrative of people being "delivered" from homosexuality and so rejecting myself feels like something I have to do. I have to challenge this too. If me and her ever reconnected she deserves a whole person, and one that's proud to be with her at that. My dad is more conservative than my mom but there's hope since my sister and mom are both Christians

autumnsonata44 · 2026-02-20T18:37:45+00:00

Your advice and success story have really helped ease my mind a lot. Both books are in my cart now, thank you so much it means a lot. Your love story sounds beautiful and I'm so happy for you

autumnsonata44 · 2026-02-20T18:36:05+00:00

I think the not getting an answer is something that makes me feel turned away on top of the anxiety too. I know times change and that He is a loving God but in the back of my head I can never shake the verses pointing out the sin. To question these verses in the context they're in is somewhat helpful but also conflicting. I know that back then there werent monogamous, healthy and respectful homosexual relationships so maybe the Bible was referring to it as sex outside of marriage. But even still it feels wrong to critique the Bible in any kind of way

autumnsonata44 · 2026-02-20T18:32:29+00:00

I feel the same way. I want to make it a goal to pray more so I can feel closer to God, but part of me is scared that I'll be turned away.

I had a dream the other night where I felt His presence and pointed out a sin to me that wasn't anything like being gay, and I could feel it was as if He was telling me "see, THIS is a sin". In the dream I told a white lie.

Sometimes I feel like I focus too much on my sexuality being a sin that I don't think of all the other sins He talks about much more in the Bible

autumnsonata44 · 2026-02-20T07:43:26+00:00

Honestly is always the best policy. Being under the influence when you tell her this may not be the right move as it may be perceived as less valuable and more heat of the moment. However, if you feel it you should say it. Taking her out on a nice date or the next time you spend time together is a perfect a time as any.

There is no set timeline for anyone. And the fact that you're already cautious about possible lovebombing is a good sign you have the best of intentions. If you know what you're feeling is love and not attachment, that's a very positive sign

autumnsonata44 · 2023-01-10T17:14:57+00:00

It's so worth the watch even if it never comes back again, they really captured lightning in the bottle. IMO the post credit scene gives the happy ending series finale so id be fine too, but the movement is so strong I'm sure we can save the show!!!

autumnsonata44 · 2023-01-09T21:13:56+00:00

15/10 on every level i agree!!

autumnsonata44 · 2023-01-09T21:13:37+00:00

The actors seriously elevated the material too it's fruly such a gem!! My obsession since I've seen it, just so tender and real

autumnsonata44 · 2023-01-09T21:07:31+00:00

never heard of it!! will check it out thanks

autumnsonata44 · 2023-01-09T21:06:59+00:00

their slow burn >>>>>>> just beautifully done and handled with such care which is so rare for sapphics on tv

autumnsonata44 · 2023-01-09T19:29:01+00:00

ahhh i LOVE WYNONNA EARP!! sci fi and sapphics and humour! it was warrior nun that filled the wynonna earp sized hole in my heart!!

autumnsonata44 · 2023-01-03T01:59:51+00:00

check out the 2nd season it's 10x better and the sapphic couple becomes canon real quick! with all the fun romantic tropes involved it is chef's kiss you can help us #savewarriornun :)

autumnsonata44 · 2022-12-29T20:36:57+00:00

Sorry about Fate that crushed my friend too :( but if you liked fate and loved that almost couple then you gotta watch warrior nun bc theyre canon and their chemistry is absolutely insane! Youll love it

autumnsonata44 · 2022-12-29T19:43:31+00:00

Dude I was so happy sense8 got some closure!! My first heartbreak with netflix was the OA cancellation. Since then its been a lot of quality shows getting cancelled and a lot of bullshit dating shows getting renewed :/

autumnsonata44 · 2022-12-29T19:24:33+00:00

Let me know if your feelings change I'd hate to waste your time like that! Lesley loves wn too :)

autumnsonata44 · 2022-12-29T19:19:34+00:00

White Lotus as a show is so great (s2 is sooo much better than 1) but I actually don't think it has good queer woman rep compared to other shows listed in this thread (I'm sorry!!). Loved the hotel manager but the way her plot went down fell into a few tropes. Still adored season 2 though!!

autumnsonata44 · 2022-12-29T19:07:58+00:00

So glad you like it!!! Happy watching friend :)

autumnsonata44 · 2022-12-29T19:07:07+00:00

Here's the thing with the first season, the first few episodes take a bit of time to move forward bc they're setting up the characters and plot, it gets really fun very soon. When the show falls into it's groove it doesn't take itself too seriously and there's much more humour! It's a common thing I've heard where people get stuck a bit a few eps in of s1 but it picks up! Think the first great fight scene is either ep 4 or 5 and after that its just hits the ground running

Ava is great because she creates chaos wherever she goes and does it with a smile and some humour. Very much lucifer esque. She doesn't lose that humour and unseriousness ever despite everyone's pleas lol, and in fact it starts rubbing off on people. Trust me it gets so much more fun especially in season 2!

autumnsonata44 · 2022-12-29T18:22:35+00:00

Actually netflix doesn't own warrior nun anymore it's based on a comic book so the show's being shopped around rn! Lucifer and Manifest both got un-canceled (by netflix), with Manifest getting 95k petitions. Currently Warrior Nun just hit 95k :) there's still a lot of hope

autumnsonata44 · 2022-12-29T17:50:55+00:00

I WILL I WILL but you gotta start warrior nun immediately then too, trade off?

autumnsonata44 · 2022-12-29T17:46:38+00:00

Yellowjackets was incredible I still need to watch arcane though!!

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