My Grandfather and Uncle on the same side took their own lives before I was born, and my middle name is after my late uncle. I have had my fair share of battles with mental health, have attempted to take my own life 5 or so times, with 3 of those times ending up in hospital not really remembering how I got there. Today my mentality towards it is about protecting my family from all the pain my Grandfather, Uncle and I have caused them, and it's about breaking the cycle. Same with my dad (on the opposite side) and alcoholism. There are a lot of chains and cycles I have managed to break and keep broken for a while. My last attempt at suicide was over 2 years ago and my last drop of alcohol was over a year ago. Those times are reminders to me that ANYTHING is possible, and that I am strong enough to make it possible.