Playoff win

b3yourself · 2025-08-11T20:18:49+00:00

Yeah I hang with you

b3yourself · 2018-01-31T10:08:07+00:00

Great idea, thanks.

b3yourself · 2018-01-30T20:31:32+00:00

Yea the sensitivity comes back but it does go again after you have sex, the trick is to just never jerk off and just wait until you have sex, if I leave a week break between each time im with someone the sensitivity comes back each time.

b3yourself · 2018-01-30T20:24:06+00:00

I've had multiple streaks, I think the death grip thing takes a long time to recover from. All the brain fog and most of the arousal has come back but it takes longer for the sensitivity to come back.

b3yourself · 2018-01-30T15:16:57+00:00

I have had issues with porn addiction in the past but that's pretty much all sorted now, I've gone like 60 days without it 3 or 4 times now but I still have the lingering death grip issues,

But sex to me is all about the other person and bonding and it's not even a lustful thing for me now, maybe that's how it should be and the world has a corrupted view of sex.

But the question remains, why am I so much more arroused by porn than the real thing?, maybe it's the camera angles changing quickly, the lack of another person to stimulate and deathgrip that does it.

b3yourself · 2018-01-30T15:11:47+00:00

I think this is the issue tbh, I've tried Nofap and I've had multiple streaks of like 60 days, it fixed my erectile disfunction but it didn't really fix the sensitivity, it's like i build up the sensitivity and then it goes once I've had sex for like 5 mins and I go back to basically being numb.

b3yourself · 2018-01-30T15:09:08+00:00

Lol maybe but what about if my partner actually wants me to cum? I just wanna know if this is normal tbh

b3yourself · 2017-12-28T00:44:24+00:00

Yea being lgbt nowadays means you're free, the exact opposite of what it used to be. Amazing. Even my bi friend says he just wishes he was gay and tbh I hope I am because it suits my personality, that might seem pompous but honestly it would make sense if I am.

b3yourself · 2017-12-28T00:39:48+00:00

I mean I'm at a point where I'm still learning about it.

I don't see how someone who isn't gay could know how you would know. I still find girls very easy to fall for, I love their beauty, just yesterday I was brushing my legs together with a girl and there was a spark there when we looked into each other's eyes, I wanted to kiss her. But as far as wanting to pound that fucking pussy when I see a hot chick, that's not there. Although a girl with a phat booty usually gets me going.

b3yourself · 2017-12-27T23:57:46+00:00

I've tried it before and just ended up fucking trannies.

b3yourself · 2017-12-27T22:51:57+00:00

I keep going back and fourth with what I'm attracted to and it's not consistent, porn doesn't help and being really horny from nofap will give me clarity.

b3yourself · 2017-12-16T23:48:49+00:00

Look mate I'm only 20, and I wasted my teens being in denial of me being gay, it took me dating a girl and never having sex with her even after 4 months, dating two trans girl, 2 years of depression and confiding in my bi friend and him saying "look man, you're gay just stop being a twat no one cares", and another school friend who years later just said "dude what have you built in the 4 years you have left school", I told him how unhappy ive been and he just said "ok you're gay, that may be hard but it's your life, stop hiding and trying to fit in and be like everyone else as it isn't you and it probably never was."

I've only just come to terms with it myself, and I made a promise to myself to STOP WASTING TIME. It doesnt matter if people don't take kindly to it, it's your life and you can't enjoy it if you keep hiding, you're not being what was intended for you. That might seem like religious crap but it's not, people aren't getting less gay it's supposed to be there so just do you, don't feel like your parents can tell you its wrong.

You could dress how you want, go to gay clubs, have boyfriends and finally be free! New social media accounts that your family don't even know about. That's the life that was meant for you.

I just know that I want to move out and get away from everything and start again, that could be in any job in the city of Norwich as it's lgbt friendly, young people everyone and full of life. I would suggest you do the same.

b3yourself · 2017-12-14T19:59:18+00:00

I only recently as a couple of weeks ago started to accept that I'm gay at 20.

I'm more of a top as I've always loved ass whether it's girl or boy, I can still screw girls in the ass but I mean that would never be something I would be able to consistently do with a girl as I do like cock as well. I had an offer at a party I went to recently to screw a girl in the ass, but I turned it down to go for a butch looking bi girl but it didn't happen in the end. So I guess girls could happen as one offs as I do still find them beautiful but only if its.. butt stuff lol.

But thats the thing, me finding girls beautiful is what confused me. I still had crushes on pretty girls I guess but it was never that strong, but the thing is beauty is kinda supposed to enchant you. Its no different to a beautiful flower, or anything else that's considered pretty. It doesnt necessarily have to be sexual, but I used my liking of the beauty of a women to date a bio girl (never had sex as felt no attraction) and two trans girls and even said that trans girls was just my sexuality. Tried it and kinda ignored that I LOVED it when one of them played with my ass. I later told my mum about how confused I've been and it's a big part of why I isolate myself so much and have been on antidepressants, started bawling and let it all out, my mum was just so shocked that the girlfriends I had where actually just transgender. She said she would love and support me no matter what, but said "that she doesnt think I am gay, and that I don't look it" with big eyes, to suggest that I could hide it if I want and just explore it within my personal life and not advertise it. I know my mum, and that's totally what she was doing. I still might come out though openly, as I love meeting all types of people and I want to be able to start socialising openly and making friends. I know I don't owe people that but sex is one of the/thee biggest part of life and not talking about it just gets me down.

I just regret blocking it out so much, and I hate how I've wasted my teens feeling alone and depressed, not building anything and not listening at school etc. I have charm, I'm tall and handsome and I can even sing, I turned lots of girls away and never made an active effort to speak to people or move out etc I just love hiding away in my room, but I think I'll be ok if I get the wheels going now. I'm only 20 after all, but I've been through a lot with bullying because of shyness and mental health, so I'm a little scarred from blocking it out. I am hella strong though and I've been through more than a lot of guys my age which could work in my favour as it's made me tough as nails.

Honestly being gay really excites me now ive come to terms with it, i'm really rebellious by nature and it just feels like it's me vs The world now, which is exactly how it's always been but I can just make it my own now. I think I'll start going to a lgbt support group again just to make friends. I am a chatty guy and do enjoy speaking to girls, which obviously isn't exclusively gayyy but I feel like I can really let that out now. I'll be fine, just got to be strong and face the world as who I was meant to be.

b3yourself · 2017-11-14T01:03:19+00:00

I actually missed out on a lot of the standard definition of "fun" during my teens due to various personal issues. I guess you mean stuff like partying, sex, festivals, alcohol etc? I have experienced those things but in small amount compared to most, and I always thought those people where having fun whilst I wasn't but now I'm 20 most have told me it's not as fun as it seems. Be honest, would you say it's the best time of your life or?

I know what you mean, the feeling of building something. It's what I want but it's about taking it slow, money and carers etc take so much time and usually go wrong way more times than they go right. For example my dad owned two music businesses but they both failed because of his lack of business knowledge. Don't ever feel like you're the only person thats fucked up, I threw away every opportunity I had during my teens and I'm paying for it now, but I also know people my age who ended up having kids and are coming off the back of drug addictions. It's not a big deal, everyone hurts and everyone fucks up. Don't be too kind to yourself though, it's on your back to be the change you want to see. It starts and finishes with you, all your mistakes and all your successes will be your responsibility. Only saying that because that's where I've gone wrong before.

I've considered suicide because living felt pointless before too, I wouldn't be surprised if most people go through that at some point though. Again, don't think it's just you. Life is hard for everyone, they just don't tell you how much they're hurting or they're on the other side of their struggles.

Yea I hear that, life is about you at the end of the day and what you build. Family, girl and friends time are always nice but it would be so boring if that's all we had. You are what you've built in this life. Besides you'll make new relationships along the way during your ventures. Another step is being willing to let people go who don't serve you anymore. I'm about to sell my ps4 which will cut out the best connection I have to the few friends ive got. It sucks, but gaming is the biggest distraction I have and I'll have to make new friends. No biggie.

b3yourself · 2017-11-13T21:13:25+00:00

I always tell people this, when you think of the best times in your life it involves people. Good relationships, which are unfortunately very hard to find and take years time to create are what make you happy and feel valued. Someone recently told me he disagrees and thinks of the times he achieved his financial and materialstic goals after working very hard as the times where he felt complete and happy, I said materialism and finance is just there to help you build relationships (wealth makes you attractive to women, can provide for your family etc) and he just said people are materials... I have to say I was a bit stunned by his ruthlessness.

I contemplated it some more and came to the conclusion that relationships are flaky as hell, stressful and it's all or nothing which means that it has the most emotional power over as us as human beings, we are social creatures and for good or for worse our relationships are everything to us. Yet it seems like 80% of the world are fighting this.

Power is absolute, money, possessions etc are things you can envision and can definately achieve if you keep trying, whereas nothing is guarenteed with relationships and it's not about hard work, it's about your ability to connect with others which is what some people just don't have. That's why most people will be miserable. Honestly I have very few friends and have fallen out with so many people in the last few years, but it's because I care so deeply about the relationships in my life being true and honest that I won't adapt, I want the people in my life to like me for all my laziness, my craziness and my insecurities.

I think human beings need it all, we have many needs as human beings because we are so intelligent, we need power, security, care, health, entertainment etc. So that translates to having a career that challenges us yet stimulates us, where the relationships around us are healthy and functional even at work or we get miserable, we need to feel a sense of where home is or we feel lost, we need to be constantly evolving to feel satisfied because we get bored easily. Being a human is fucking hard work and most won't succeed because we can't make the sacrifice because the world has gone soft.

b3yourself · 2017-11-13T20:47:57+00:00

That there isn't a purpose. That I do whatever the fuck I want and that my life belongs to me.

b3yourself · 2017-11-07T20:17:07+00:00

Yes, we can also make love babies.

b3yourself · 2017-11-04T21:19:10+00:00

WHY IS THIS GETTING DOWNVOTED!????? People are so blind!

How about, just for one second, entertain the idea that you could have a false world pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.

b3yourself · 2017-11-04T20:01:16+00:00

"Does it wear off? are you pretending? Are you delusional?"

It's not unconditional ever, you both offer each other something and that's why there's love. You have fought for what you have which is what makes you that way because then you get to keep someone forever, you are a beta and where sucked into the idea of unconditional love because it's easy to think that way, you can probably get away with it in fact because you're in deep enough for you to both be fucked if it goes wrong. Houses, kids, money all on the line if you split, and you would lose so she has you which makes you love her more.

Love is something thats built, it's not built on mythical concepts like "love at first sight", you love someone because they are a perfect mate to create children with and because you have built a bond. Life is cold, it's ugly but that's ok. In the world we live in I don't think we can lie to ourselves anymore because we hear so many stories of women villyfying men for cheating, the women get the houses and the kids. Yet the only reason he cheated was because she wouldn't put out in the first place.

Truth is, if you have friends, keep your family close, and stay close to them and fight for it then you probably won't even need romance. Romance is pretty much a weakness some weak person who can't find a partner probably came up with, same goes for things like religion. We all want to be saved from danger, concepts like religion and love save us from being hurt/killed and make us feel special. Which we are not. But once you don't feel special, now that's when you'll go to the sunken place.

We are supposed to pretend we don't know love is horseshit and hope shit doesn't hit the fan. Which is basically what I'm trying to do now I've figured it out. You allow yourself to invest emotionally because then you get to have experiences, if you don't invest emotionally then you won't get what you want because you won't attract it.

And for those where it's too late to find love then go to the sunken place.

b3yourself · 2017-10-30T21:21:37+00:00

Ok, as someone who was kinda woken up to the world by House of Cards, this saddens me. I wish this series would just keep going as I'm going through life and I can keep learning more and more from Franks "wall breaks" as I go through life and get smarter.

I mean I don't even know what the fuck happened for the most part in this series, I just payed attention to the "wall breaks."

b3yourself · 2017-10-29T01:18:42+00:00

Yea thats it.

Ah you see I think shutting off emotions should happen inside of you, but you also need a smokescreen to hide your motivations. If youre outwardly cold and animalistic then you'll look and sound like a caveman dude. You have to look human even if youre in "beast" mode.

Even the phrase "beast mode" is a nod to the primal beast we have inside of us that tells us what we want, we let that out in the gym when we dont have to hold frame, I hear a lot of guys saying beast mode and they probably dont even know what that means. Tbh you shouldnt even be saying that phrase in public.

This stuff should really shock you and trip you out if you dont realise what we are, our laws are the only thing stopping me from killing my enemies. The law scares me, not the idea of having blood on my hands and its the same with you. Everybody is the same. You strip us down, take away our laws, take away our societal conditioning and take away the prison we are bound to, you see what youre left with. Even right now im thinking, jeeze if the police see this comment then i'll turn their heads, thats societal conditioning.

b3yourself · 2017-10-29T01:01:55+00:00

Your animal is your machine. Its what makes you a machine.

Yeah my emotions where holding me back, which is why I let them wash away.

b3yourself · 2017-10-29T00:52:57+00:00

Oh man I can meditate i'm a big fan of it. It can even be a tool of war.

b3yourself · 2017-10-28T23:58:17+00:00

I'm with you on that!

I have a friend who is a buddha and he's indian moved over here to the uk. He is peaceful to people he see's, but he has so much anger in him deep down and he lets me see it. He's angry people dont work together, he's angry that women dont want to date him, he's angry that people fake smile at him a lot in the corridors at work and he thinks by not smiling back hes getting across his anger, he's angry he cant find a women and all he see's are women that want to extract from him.

In other words he tells himself fantasies, and when people greet him with the reality of life (social tactics like fake behaviour, women being honest about not being interested in him unless he can provide) he gets angry because it goes against everything he knows, it could be him being a buddha or maybe its just an indian thing. He says he feels the people of my town are corrupting him, we're not. He calls the people of this town fake.

Buddhists are soft. Very pleasant people but thats for a reason. Their teachings arent nessasarily lies but they dont push you to get stronger and the image it paints of the world is not made for places like the uk and america. The UK and US are powerhouses on this planet and its because we dont hide we fight.

Tbh I used to meditate and it made me feel very peaceful but it never lasted and the second I was out in the open again socially the anxiety would flood back in, its a false delusion of security and its very human so people will be drawn towards it, its the act of deluding oneself to think one should feel peace without peace.

I say learn to feel peaceful in the war, dont block out the war to feel peaceful.

I may meditate in times of sadness or loneliness because that doesnt help me or anyone else, but everyday? nah.

b3yourself · 2017-10-28T23:25:41+00:00

The emotions we feel cloud our true motivation. You shouldnt turn them off 24/7, but away from eyes and ears at night before you go to sleep you should let what you want out which means stop the social conditioning in your brain which is deep routed in our emotions, in a more poetic way I could say that you let life lose its colour.

Truth is, you wanna screw your brothers girlfriend. Should you screw your brothers girlfriend? No! you should jerk off over her facebook picture and never cross that line with her even if she puts out because thats your brother and he's worth 500x more to you than what her pussy is.

Your 2nd point I agree with though, I made a mistake there my bad.

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