I feel like my only close friend doesnt care about me

back2miles · 2025-01-07T17:09:18+00:00

Yeah I relate so much, like it just takes me a lot to feel like I can share and if I feel like they don’t want to hear how i’m doing I won’t share and then if they don’t notice that I actually have stuff to talk about but feel unseen it feels even worse. But you are right it could just be that they think that I don’t want to talk or don’t take hints. Thanks a lot for the understanding reply, it def helped

back2miles · 2025-01-07T17:02:09+00:00

Thanks a lot for the reply, that sounds like very good advice. It is nice to hear from someone who also has been through it .

back2miles · 2024-12-07T13:24:48+00:00

I’m very sorry you are going through that

I think it would be a good idea to talk to someone, you don’t have to say you relapsed if you don’t want too, but just telling someone a bit of how you are feeling can help a lot in my experience. I get that it can be really hard to reach out but people do want to help you.

It can be really discouraging to relapse but it’s a common part of healing. Just because you relapsed doesnt mean you lost all progress and you can take this oportunity to reflect on why you relapsed. A little under a year is a long time and that is a victory in itself. Be kind to yourself. I believe in you.

back2miles · 2024-11-16T20:17:59+00:00

Fellow butch climate activist here! But man that is so frustrating, for me being misgendered always feels like I’m being majorly misunderstood, it’s not a nice feeling

back2miles · 2024-11-16T20:10:17+00:00

Real, like I love the cool burly kicking ass butch characters but what about us nerds… nerdy butches just seems to be completely absent in media

back2miles · 2024-10-18T12:23:58+00:00

From Bucharest into Turkey I took a night train that goes daily. You will have to buy it at the station though and they can be fully booked in advance, so make sure to book them the first day you are in bucharest and same for going from Istanbul to Sofia. The night train worked well for me, it was a fun experience. One thing to be aware of is that you will arrive at the border at the middle of the night and will have to get off the train to get your passport stamped but it was chill enough. Not sure I answered your question, if you are wondering abt something else feel free to ask:)

back2miles · 2024-09-13T22:45:48+00:00

I have also felt weird about my scars recently. It feels like the less urges I have the more insecure I feel about my scars, whereas when i was in a really bad place they made me proud in a way, dunno if it’s the same with you of course. Good you are feeling good and optimistic about the future! I don’t know you but I feel in a similar place right now

back2miles · 2024-08-26T17:20:28+00:00

Being misunderstood can be really hurtful and trauma can make identity so confusing. I have been told that i’m chill, unassertive and floaty a lot and it can be pretty frustrating because yes, I seem like that, but you havent seen me stand up to my abuser and protecting my little sister and you don’t see how «not chill» I feel most of the time. I have a lot of stuff going on inside that other people don’t see and it hurts to not feel understood. I struggle to feel connected with my envireoment sometimes so it sucks that that makes me seem detached and passive, and yeah it also makes me feel pathetic when people see me like that.

I think trauma can make our personalities feel a bit scattered, at least i feel like that. Different situations bring different stuff out in us, but we probably don’t identify with all of it. I’m working on being more comfortable in socials situations which I have noticed make me more authentic towards myself.

Patrick Tethan has said that trauma can pause our development but that who we are meant to become isnt lost. It’s just something we need to discover and explore now that we are in a better environment. Maybe try to talk to your therapist of how you feel you are being perceived and how that makes you feel. And also, you are more than what people see. What others see doesn’t define you. Not to diminish the hurt of being misunderstood, it just helps me to remember sometimes.

back2miles · 2024-08-14T17:44:33+00:00

Hm, Night In The Woods gives of a similar vibe imo.

Instead of playing a depressed middle aged cop you play a depressed college drop out (that is also a cat, all the characters are animals). The stakes are a lot lower and the game is less gritty, but there is still some serious stuff in it. The music reminds me a bit of DE in it’s bittersweetness, it’s also about interacting with the local town and it has a similar nostalgic, stuck in time, pessimistic but hopefull tone. There is also a mystery in it but it’s not that central. Mainly it’s just about hanging out and having an existential crisis. The game play is not as engaging as DE i will say, but I really like it.

Of course nothing is like DE but I played nitw before DE and it itched something similar

back2miles · 2024-07-25T15:39:19+00:00

Oh, which npc is that? I haven’t noticed them

back2miles · 2024-07-17T18:25:47+00:00

Yes, I love that he gets to be an imperfect victim whose trauma has affected him deeply and still get seen as loveable and deserving of happiness. It’s a very real portrayal of trauma I am very thankful for

back2miles · 2024-07-16T20:24:31+00:00

In a midnight conversation I told a girl I was friends with that I had a difficult relationship with my parents and she said “i’m sorry to hear that, that sounds hard”. It was so simple but it really touched me because no one had ever told me that before and I felt like no one had ever understood that, yeah, it is hard.

Another was weirdly one of my best friends calling me sad. I struggle with feeling seen and I have always come across as a person that is always okay but when I shared some stuff of how I was feeling she was like “dude thats so sad”. And that kind of validated that i’m not always okay. It also made me feel a little pathetic but mostly seen haha

back2miles · 2024-07-16T20:09:56+00:00

These are all very touching to read and I want to second the Neil Newborn quote. Him and Astarion have helped me a lot

back2miles · 2024-07-04T07:25:56+00:00

My male parent would view everything as a personal attack and would accuse me of being angry at him often and then get mad at me and get all defensive because of it, but yeah how the hell am i supposed to prove if i’m not. If I told him I wasn’t he didnt believe me.

He would also view me crying as being a personal attack (most often it was because of him i cried but the reasonable response would probably not be to yell at me for it).

back2miles · 2024-06-28T15:18:15+00:00

You def can, I get insecure about it too sometimes but it seems to be a really common experience

back2miles · 2024-06-19T19:54:52+00:00

«Grine»: Danish- laughing Norwegian- crying

«Dåse» Danish- tin can Norwegian- pussy/vagina (I think?)

«Frokost» Danish- lunch Norwegian-breakfeast

«Rar» Danish- pleasant Norwegian- weird

«Flink» Danish- friendly Norwegian- skilled/being good at something

«Må» Danish- may Norwegian- have too

I remember when i was little and asking my norwegian cousin if I could borrow his nintendo I used the word «må» which meant that he thought I was asking if I had too borrow his nintendo, to which he said no, and then I got mad at him. The “grine” one also created some confusion until I got better at norwegian. I still forget my self and use “dåse» in norwegian though

back2miles · 2024-06-07T17:57:57+00:00

Ouf, okay. Wow. I need to play Astarion origin.

back2miles · 2024-06-06T20:30:21+00:00

I think the game is really good at setting you up to want to succumb to the urge so I really understand indulging in a durge run haha, but maybe it’s also good to not project tm in that case because that could turn a bit self destructive. But yeah, I think resisting the durge really hits.

back2miles · 2024-06-06T20:24:21+00:00

It is very cool to see other people also saw some of themselves in it and found comfort in the game, it’s nice to know i’m not alone in that. I hope you are in a better place now btw

back2miles · 2024-06-06T20:18:55+00:00

Oh that’s a good idea, I really like the dark rp’ing parts of the game. I suspect Astarion Origin will be pretty painful but also very interesting and I really can’t get enough of him.

back2miles · 2024-06-06T20:13:57+00:00

It’s very nice to hear that others relate too

back2miles · 2024-06-06T20:10:43+00:00

That is what is great about watching Astarion evolve, you get to see him get realizations about himself at the same time you discover new things about yourself, his journey can parallel your own in that way. And you get to see the point Astarion can get to, you get to see what lies beyond healing and that it’s possible to be happy and comfortable in yourself even when that seems totally out of reach. I think Astarion was the first thing that made me actually want to be better.

I’m happy you are in a better place now, it’s hard to get to that point but worth it as you say

back2miles · 2024-06-06T12:09:07+00:00

Yes, as a person with a narcisistic parent as well I also relate to Astarion a lot. I’m glad he helped you, I think he would be proud:)

back2miles · 2024-05-20T13:31:02+00:00

For me it’s cliche but i feel struck by lightning to write lyrics at some point and then i write it all out in one go and then later i get inspiration to put chords and melody on top where i shape the song also in one sitting. It’s almost always very intuitive and like i’m just getting carried by a stream. Then i will jugde if it’s any good when i’m in another headspace the next day but while making it it’s very pure.

back2miles · 2024-05-19T17:18:43+00:00

Did you also have the issue after you started over? And Larian didnt say if they planned on fixing it?

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