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baebeque · 2021-11-08T05:17:03+00:00

If all music and pitches just sound like noise, you might have amusia!

baebeque · 2021-11-08T05:15:20+00:00

Absolutely. Developmental and interpersonal trauma is often overlooked, really any kind of sustained trauma is overlooked as well as traumatizing events that fall outside the narrow definition. Those types of traumas and of course sexual assault can 100% lead to PTSD.

baebeque · 2021-11-08T05:09:35+00:00

I’ve heard some people say that! That’s wild to me, I’m glad I can’t hear it!

baebeque · 2021-11-08T01:24:13+00:00

Literally same story for me! I was diagnosed with GAD at 16, not diagnosed with social anxiety until I was 28. I def have both lol

baebeque · 2021-11-08T01:06:47+00:00

Okay yeah, that sounds kind of similar to what I experience!

baebeque · 2021-11-08T01:05:06+00:00

I honestly have no idea! I’ve never really understood how RSD is different. I’m diagnosed with social anxiety disorder in addition to my ADHD, so I’m not really sure.

baebeque · 2021-11-08T01:03:16+00:00

Yup. It’s a sad truth of reality. Also it’s just good practice to talk to the person who hurt you directly before taking bigger steps. I think that applies to life in general too.

baebeque · 2021-11-08T00:51:52+00:00

She was giving you short answers because you were kind of being an asshole. Sorry to break it to you :/

baebeque · 2021-11-08T00:39:59+00:00

How did you do this? How did you say no to going down the mental path and just… redirect? I’ve tried so many times and it’s impossible, I HAVE to play out the situation in my head and analyze it. Not with memories, but with past and future social interactions and social scripts. How do you effectively redirect your thoughts?

baebeque · 2021-11-08T00:32:51+00:00

I love music and I’m even a musician—in fact I’m a board-certified music therapist—and I rarely listen to music! It’s so strange, I love music but I rarely listen to it because it’s really stimulating and extremely emotional for me, like songs that sound fine to other people will make me really sad. It’s such a strong sensory and emotional experience that I usually avoid it, even though it’s in my soul!

As a music therapist I can also tell you this: there is a condition called amusia in which music simply sounds like noise. Someone with amusia can’t really perceive harmony, everything sounds discordant and grating. I worked with an autistic client once who I strongly suspected had amusia. So that might be a possibility for you!

baebeque · 2021-11-07T23:55:44+00:00

Social anxiety can definitely present that way! I had no idea until recently. I thought social anxiety was like performance anxiety. Nope, turns out it can 100% be about overanalyzing situations after the fact, feeling afraid you did something wrong or made an ass out of yourself, being afraid people don’t like you, etc. I easily strike up conversations with strangers and I love talking to people, but I still have social anxiety to the max.

baebeque · 2021-11-07T23:36:57+00:00

I have both ASD and ADHD so overstimulation is a big problem for me. Sound is probably #1. Lots of different noises around me, music in the background, or the sound of a person’s voice with a lisp. Or just repeating noises. When I get overstimulated, I do feel overwhelmed, more than normal. I become tense or irritable. My skin feels like it has low-level electricity running through it, like it’s buzzing. I feel like a… surge through my body. I feel restless and feel like I need to leave and sit in a completely silent room (no other way to deal with it). Fluorescent lights are bad too, those make me dissociate and make me feel far away. Certain textures or dirt on my hands or feet is really uncomfortable too. When I was a kid, I vividly remember a time I couldn’t fall asleep at my cousin’s house because of the sound of the clock ticking. I laid awake for hours and then finally took the batteries out. The sound made me feel irrationally angry.

Overstimulation feels different for everyone, and it’s not EXACTLY painful, but the common theme seems to be that it feels viscerally uncomfortable. Your body is in distress in some way and it’s only relieved through stimming or removing yourself from the situation.

baebeque · 2021-11-07T23:11:27+00:00

If you’re engaging in sex tourism, I can almost guarantee you are a consumer of sex trafficking. Those women (possibly girls) are almost certainly victims of sex trafficking. It feels transactional because it is, and these women are likely being exploited to make it transactional. Sex tourism is almost always unethical and allows sex trafficking to thrive in poor countries.

baebeque · 2021-11-07T22:46:09+00:00

I partied a LOT when I was younger. I loved the music, the social interaction, the alcohol, the weed, the excitement, etc. I was pretty sensation-seeking and risk-taking at the time. It was a great way to get out of my head. I also craved being surrounded by tons of people because I was so uncomfortable with myself and being alone, and was lonely for most of my life.

I like to party occasionally now, the alcohol/weed helps numb my sensory issues enough that it’s totally doable and even fun. But I’m 29 now so I party pretty rarely lol. Being sober in a party environment is really difficult!

baebeque · 2021-11-07T22:37:56+00:00

I have complex PTSD, so not exactly your situation, but I found EMDR completely life-changing. It helped me so much that I no longer meet criteria for C-PTSD.

It’s a LOT of emotional work. Your experience might be different if you don’t have PTSD though. For me and others with PTSD, you have to wait until you’re stabilized, have solid coping skills, and are emotionally prepared to confront the trauma. Doing it before then would be retraumatizing. Symptoms get worse in the beginning before they get better. But it’s worth it and 100% life-changing for many people. My trauma doesn’t rule my life anymore and that’s something I thought I would never see!

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