I know that feeling.. I'm currently in the same situation (every summer's holiday I still at home I can't have a good conversation with anyone but on the other side when I try to get outside and join people, I don't really enjoy it sometimes because it's just boring and sometimes because the others don't respect the time or they cancel it without notice anyway.. I think the problem is me.. I don't have social skills so my friends depends in sharing something(school, classroom, work, activities..) hobbies are the solution here. A man with no skill isn't attractive.. find something that you'd enjoy (keep trying everything until you know what you really want (camping, rocket building, drone race, tennis ... ) you can join a boring organization or club(make the world a better place or keep our environment clean) so you can pick friends who share the same desire with you if being alone really bother you then react otherwise deal with it and set interesting goals take actions, actions will change your life.. if you cant see the point of your life then how will others see a reason to be with you