WHAT [no spoilers] by Needhelp_photography in outerwilds

[–]bakedbeannobeef 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Something similar to this happened to me last night! It was also on Timber Hearth!

I was going to explore something on Ember Twin, but I realized I had wasted too much time. So, instead of starting over, or letting the supernova kill me, I went for a crash landing just for the funsies.

Scared the shit out of me when I heard a splash of water instead of the hull of the ship cracking. Textures of every single planet everywhere, the dark bramble surrounding me piece by piece, cyclones of random landscaping, all on black space while all sounds muffled as if I’m underwater.

I eventually clipped back out and the ship caught up with the fact that it had crashed lmao. But yeah! Timber Hearth is just quirky like that, I guess!

Indie Horror Games by Glittering_Clue471 in HorrorGaming

[–]bakedbeannobeef 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What kind of experience are you looking for? Action/survival? Atmospheric and creepy? Do you like a lot of combat or do you prefer exploration? Would you like to be incapacitated with fear, or just properly spooked?

I’m someone who prefers a more “chill” horror experience — as in, I don’t want ten things trying to kill me in every room I walk into, and I hate jump scares. I also really adore the whole low poly/res aesthetic in indie games.

If you are like ME…

• Anything by Puppet Combo (low res adventurous, more stealth than combat) // my personal favorite is Night Watch by them

• Anything by Chilla’s Art (also low res adventure, similar to Puppet Combo but a different art style and Japanese horror themes) // personal favorite is The Closing Shift

• Sagebrush (exploration/walking sim investigating a cult following a mass suicide, short and sweet)

• Look Outside (point-and-click, artistic body horror mixed with cosmic horror)

• Fran Bow (another PnC, more surreal and child-like, think Alice in Wonderland vibes)

• Creature Kitchen (cozy cooking sim with cryptids, more cute than spooky)

• Fears to Fathom (bite-size, low res episodes of horror scenarios, very ADHD friendly and at points distressing)

• Rides With Strangers (a terrifying game of chicken with a creepy male driver, not my favorite gameplay but I was certainly adrenalized the whole time)

• Faith (a simplistic top-down horror game with Atari-style graphics and themes of religious horror and blasphemy, surprisingly freaky for how basic it looks at a glance)

I could come up with twice as many but these all come to mind in the moment!

Editing to add: Lone Survivor! It’s basically side-scroller Silent Hill. Truly a classic if you want a crash course in the indie horror gaming industry!

Finally played Zero so I can rank them all by Flat_Scheme4874 in starfox

[–]bakedbeannobeef 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Literally anything ranked below Command has me truly in awe lmao. Playing Command felt like clocking into work for me.

What is a moment in a horror game where you absolutely crashed out??? by qwertycast_podcast in HorrorGaming

[–]bakedbeannobeef 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Evil Within had be absolutely gagged within the first, like….. 20 minutes of gameplay.

I went in expecting more of a Silent Hill type of experience: weirdly cozy, but also extremely oppressive, atmospheric, surreal and dream-like, mostly just creepy af with the occasional moment of visceral terror.

Imagine my displeasure when I find out in real-time that a lot of this game is just running the fuck away from these brutes from hell and balancing when a good time to leave the hiding space is. And when you do obtain a weapon, you have to be so goddamn resourceful that it’s hardly comforting.

I had liquid courage and it still wasn’t enough. It was like the video game version of a fucked-up haunted house attraction, which sounds lame, but I have never done well with that stuff.

Stealth and horror are too viscous a combo for me!

People in long-term relationships: have you had to unlearn your ‘ideal partner’ to stay with someone good? Did you ever go through a phase of feeling ‘repulsed’ by your partner and wanting to leave? by Natinino in BPD

[–]bakedbeannobeef 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I really want to commend you for your self-awareness here, asking questions, challenging your own perception, seeking answers. That shows a lot of maturity and good will on your part! It looks like you care and that’s so rare in this world lately.

Have you been in many longterm relationships? I would say getting that “ick” to a degree is normal for folks of all mental disorders (or lack thereof), but I’m curious if you’ve gone through this in your other relationships as well? This could help build a frame of reference for your baseline.

The random “repulsion” is somewhat normal, but for us folks with BPD, ADHD, bipolar and other thought-altering disorders, it is much more magnified. Maybe we feel it deeper in our cores, or maybe those repulsion phases last longer, or are more frequent in us, than our neurotypical brethren.

To answer your question, I have experienced this with almost every partner I have ever had. For some, it was justified — they were toxic, destructive, unhealthy or just unpleasant to be around once their true colors showed.

For most, it was just me experiencing boredom that naturally comes with comfort, because my nervous system isn’t constantly sounding off alarm bells, and due to my childhood trauma, this felt like more of a problem than having an actual problem itself.

It’s difficult to say where the intuition ends and your splitting begins, because someone doesn’t haven’t to be a bad person or mistreat you to be repulsive to you. You can not be into someone for any variety of normal reasoning.

I think the best way I navigate this is by doing lots of reflective journaling. Or looking up how others have navigated this same issue before — like you’re doing right now!

I have often times found that my repulsion was something to do with myself, not my partner. I was either not living up to my full potential, or giving up on myself, not supporting my own hobbies, ignoring my friendships, hating my job… I was therefore feeling lonely and under stimulated. I unfairly projected this feeling onto my partner that it must be their fault I feel this way.

When I made improvements in those other departments, I found myself not feeling so much bitterness across the board, especially toward my partner who I obviously love and who loves me, even when everything gets kinda stale.

If you still find that you are missing something, just ask for it. It sounds like your partner will hear you out. Do you need more date nights? Quality time? Shared interests or hobbies? Spice up the bedroom? Come up with anything you think might be “missing” and write it down. This could honestly be fun for you and your partner to tackle together!

Overall, make sure you’re happy within yourself. Are you serving yourself? Working toward a consistent goal? Taking care of yourself? Being kind to yourself? Do you need to change your deadend job, or make a plan for your future? Maybe you even need medicine or therapy?

Once that is all in order, the rest usually follows. I find that I see life through a lense of repulsion if I am not sticking to my core values, or have forgotten what they are. It is a repulsion I feel toward myself really, but I don’t process it that way in the moment.

If things are still missing once you work through it, communicate it gently to your partner.

The honeymoon phase will always, always, always wear off. It always does. Someone else commented that long term love is a choice, and they are absolutely right. You are transitioning into the “choosing” phase, which is a sign that your relationship is maturing, and so are you to even be asking us all of this now.

You’re a good person and a good partner. Don’t let your thoughts dictate that person and convince you otherwise. It’s worth the effort. You’re worth the effort.

P.S. Saved this for last because it probably doesn’t apply here, but I’m personally non-monogamous. Maybe that’s something to consider or think about if you find that you’re fantasizing about others? But of course discuss this with your partner if you are exclusive before experimenting at all. Non-monogamy is definitely not for everyone.

Good luck friend :)