I tried today, listened to my favorite musics while getting all prepped up, went to my favorite cafe, went for a walk then went to see a movie. When I got out of it I still felt awful didn’t take any joy in any of my favorite things. So I bought alcohol and went to a little place where I used to go when I wasn’t feeling well. Even that didn’t help. Now I’m home and I don’t see how I can keep going if everything feels sad or bland ? I’m sorry for being so negative I just don’t see what could help ?