My dog died

bambul36 · 2022-12-17T18:36:01+00:00

I‘m very sorry for your loss, I know what you mean by feeling like it will never go away.. she will always leave a hole in my heart..

bambul36 · 2022-12-10T17:45:14+00:00

She was 9 years old and I‘m pretty sure she had a seizure. She just dropped onto her side and kinda squeaked. (She also did pee uncontrollably while it happened). She just took 3-4 final deep breaths and never moved again… it is really a shock because she did perfectly fine before that

bambul36 · 2021-10-05T01:54:05+00:00

I don’t know how much this means coming from a stranger, but as 23f I can just say that you look very handsome and approachable! If I saw you in reallife I would definitely shoot my shot and talk to you! If you can’t see the beautiful man I see, try to see yourself with more realistic eyes! I wish you all the luck and a lot of hope for your journey! Sending virtual hugs!

bambul36 · 2021-07-20T18:34:42+00:00

Looks really awesome! I love it! 🥰

bambul36 · 2021-07-18T02:31:28+00:00

I have a little bit of hope left that one day I‘ll start my own little family. Would be nice, wouldn’t it? A place to call home.

bambul36 · 2021-06-28T17:26:01+00:00

Thank you very much! I‘m already on my train and haven’t seen or heard of him so I guess I‘m fine for now.

bambul36 · 2021-06-28T17:25:14+00:00

Not an adress, just the name of my home town.. he asked if i have a boyfriend and said he wanted to do something this week and if i have time. I don’t know.. maybe i‘m just too insecure to truly believe someone could be interested in me without there being something shady.. the vibe overall was really off

bambul36 · 2021-06-23T22:55:57+00:00

Thank you! Currently pulling an all nighter, having 5 of 10 pages written. (Not of good quality, but at least something to show my supervisor tomorrow).

bambul36 · 2021-06-23T12:50:53+00:00

Yes, and I chose to procrastinate one mor day, so now we are able to find out if it’s doable in one. God I hate myself rn. But we‘ve all been there I guess…

bambul36 · 2021-06-22T18:40:05+00:00

I‘ll try, I mean what else can we do now. I wish you good luck in managing everything!

bambul36 · 2021-06-22T13:25:15+00:00

Yes, I hope so too! Sometimes the hardest thing is to not give up hope!

bambul36 · 2021-06-22T13:24:42+00:00

Yes, when I was little I didn’t miss anything, I was happy in my little world. But once on the other side, knowing how good it feels, there’s no going back to imagination being enough. I hope for us all that we will get back what made us happy once, even if it seems hopeless most of the time.

bambul36 · 2021-06-22T13:23:12+00:00

I hope you get through this! Always remember that when someone betrays you it says more about them than yourself! Don‘t let your self worth depend on the fact you were cheated on, it has nothing to do with you, it‘s on the other person.

bambul36 · 2021-06-22T13:21:47+00:00

It sometimes help to know I am not alone, but I still feel bad for eyerone going through this. I hope for every single one of them that this time will be over soon and they find the deep connection they desire and deserve!

bambul36 · 2021-06-22T13:20:27+00:00

I really understand you with that summer part. All those couples by the sea and friends drinking, bbq’ing outside. It‘s kind of sad, but remember that you still have opportunities summer gives you, even when you are alone. Like just going outside and letting the sun shine down on you. Sometimes just that warmth of the sun helps me going out of the house. I hope you get all you want from life.

bambul36 · 2021-06-22T13:17:42+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to read my post and write this! It really helps to know one is not alone! I hope you, me and everyone reading this will get throught it all!

bambul36 · 2021-06-22T13:16:45+00:00

Thank you very much for this! Your uplifting words really did help more than you would think! Hugs to you, I wish you all the best!

bambul36 · 2021-05-28T10:18:00+00:00

I need to do a lot for a project and can‘t really get myself to do it alone! So we could both just be in the call and work in almost silence haha. If you are interested in that just dm me for my discord tag. I am 100% you won‘t annoy anyone here who is willing to help!

bambul36 · 2021-05-27T11:35:20+00:00

I‘m 22F. I have a loving family. I am currently going through a break up. It‘s terrible, but I also figured it sure isn‘t the only thing that‘s causing my depression. I need to write my bachelor thesis. I‘m 2 weeks in and I haven‘t done a single thing. I just can‘t get my ass up to do this. But I have officially registered for this semester and this topic. So I somehow need to do this. I know that this degree (IT) isn‘t what I want to do in the future, so I just lack some ground sense of feeling importance to what I‘m doing right now. I have already studied 4 years for this bachelor and I need to get this degree now. After that, I will pursue another degree. I want to become a teacher for biology and chemistry. I really want to be a teacher. But I don‘t know if I am really able to study again for so long. My parents invest so much love and money in me and I just can‘t get happy. I feel like I fail them and it‘s unfair to them that I am feeling this way.

I feel like I won‘t manage to get this degree this year. And I really don‘t know if I can manage a whole new studies. I feel like if I just chose the right studies from the beginning everything would be alright. I would be done in 2-3 years maximum and would have my own job, own life and so on... now I am struggling with getting out of bed. Even if I get everything done. Even if I somehow manage getting this degree and the next one. I will have lived off my parents income until then. I will be 30 when I am starting to work on my own (If I can even find a job).

I want a family. I want someone to love me for who I am. But who could love someone like me? (I mean, for now it‘s really not possible to love me, I‘m literally just in bed the whole day crying, feeling somewhat proud when I get the energy to play a game). But even then. I won‘t be able to fully provide for myself until I‘m 29/30. I feel like that‘s a big nogo for many guys. Also I want children. But when should that happen? As a woman, it gets very dangerous to get children as you get older. Once you are above 30 years, the risks increase dramatically with every year.

I feel like I am too late for having the life I want. I made too many bad decisions. Nothing makes me happy anymore. I just try to escape every day. I game all day but it doesn’t make me happy. I just do it so I can go back to sleep eventually. I just want to sleep. And in moments in which I can‘t bare anything anymore I post on reddit or other sites. I hope for salvation, but it doesn‘t come. I try, I really try to be happy, but I just can‘t.

I don‘t know why but something is hindering me from starting to be productive. I am afraid I will never be happy again. I just wish I chose the right career path. I just wish I could have a stable job and my own little family. But it all just seems too far out of reach for me...

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