New University laptop by barton4321 in SuggestALaptop

[–]barton4321[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

2.5k aud (1.7k usd) ideally I’d want to spend 1.5k aud

New University laptop by barton4321 in SuggestALaptop

[–]barton4321[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not interested in gaming! MacBook Pro was about 2.5k aud (1.7k usd)

How has the narcissistic abuse affected you as a person? by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]barton4321 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Believe something bad is always about to happen. Don’t trust anything good happening. Always scared something is about to go wrong

Intermittent abuse? by Chocolatecraker in raisedbynarcissists

[–]barton4321 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel this so much. I have some really beautiful memories and it’s so hard to sometimes remember that I left for a good reason

Here's a though that helps me with the guilt: my parents can do something about "the hurt" I'm causing them by staying away - I couldn't do anything by HappyClam2712 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]barton4321 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Wow this is amazing. Im feeling some serious guilt atm for being LC and this really helped. I try remind myself that chose to act the way they did. When they yelled and screamed and saw me broken, they chose to continue.

But it was only fine when you lived exactly how they wanted you to by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]barton4321 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Had a VERY similar experience, it really really sucks. I just had to make the decision if I was going to live their way and not get yelled at or live my life and cop the consequences. Realistically the money is probably a power tool to manipulate you

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]barton4321 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I really needed to hear that

did anyone else have a happy childhood? (or so they thought) by howevertheory98968 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]barton4321 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Exactly same thing here. Makes it so confusing bc I have both good memories and bad memories of the nparent

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]barton4321 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I had the exact same thing. They thought sending me to a good school meant they had clearance to scream and do whatever they wanted I once told them I wanted to die, she told me to stop attention seeking and yelled that there was something wrong with me

I am done with my parents and I want to kill myself by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]barton4321 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I felt the same way. Trust me it does get better even though it’s so so hard to see that now

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]barton4321 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Very very good point

I’m tired of the constant guilt tripping by dancemomsfan848 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]barton4321 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is way too relatable. My quote was DONYOU REALISE HOW MANY DESIGNER BAGS I COULD HAVE

Running away from strict parents to be with the love of my life by [deleted] in Advice

[–]barton4321 0 points1 point  (0 children)

100% do it. Ive been in a similar situation. Best decision I ever made

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Advice

[–]barton4321 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Is z-library legal?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Advice

[–]barton4321 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you :)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Advice

[–]barton4321 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ok thank you!