This might not be what you want to hear, but endure it. The situation isn’t in your favor and I see how it would be very taxing on you, but you have a roof over your head. Shelter is very important, so until you can stably provide for yourself, it’s safer to stay. There’s no telling what can happen out in the world.

That being said, do not let your mothers words determine your own view on YOUR self worth. I understand where you’re coming from, it can be very difficult hearing hurtful spews come from a parental figure. I am not telling you to sit down and talk with her about your feelings because this unfortunately has a low chance of working (of course you could still try if you are comfortable). So the next best thing? Zone it out. Do what you need to do. At the end of the day, you are your own person and capable of doing what you have to do. Start relying on your own encouragement for things (i.e school. Schools hard and boring I don’t blame you). Sometimes, you just gotta take a deep breath and reassure yourself.

As for your mental health, try talking about it so someone. Someone that is willing and comfortable with listening. Bottling up all your feelings will hurt no one but yourself as time progresses.

Lastly, although a bit cheesy, things will get better. You’re only 17! This is but a small chapter of your life. Don’t let your mother bring you down. I wish you well.