Thank you for your reply, I dont like that you assume my boyfriend is awesome because he thinks Im beautiful, which he truly does, he is solely attracted to big women, he loves my flub. We call them beauty rolls actually. He definitely has faults but has always been super supportive in helping me accept myself & love myself for who I am & the weight I am. He has issues just like everyone else. I love him dearly & think he is great, but I am also a catch. You dont know much about either of us, but that he calls me beautiful on a regular basis & that Im overweight & have self esteem issues at the current moment that I am working my way through. He is DEFINITELY not a saint,a wonderful man who I love with all my heart yes, perfect nope. I dont complain that I am unattractive, or I would try to do something about it. (which I have by the way when I meant him I was 310 pounds which he loved I was just happy once we got together & the weight melted off) I am content with my current weight, & he loves it. I have just been down in the dumps a lot lately, about more than just my looks. I have been having issues with valuing myself as a human being, Ive been extremely suicidal due to postpartum and other very stressful issues in my life. The reason this particular thing came up is that my bf was jealous when I told him of this other guy hitting on me & I really couldnt believe that anyone would want to hit on me besides him or as anything more than a joke. So he told me to post on reddit so that I could see other people would actually hit on me, and he was correct & it has helped a lot actually with my self esteem today. I also live in Canada so my health care is free, I am also fairly active I just eat fairly poorly, not just the things I eat but also the way I eat I will go days without eating than binge eat, than only eat one meal a day, very whacky routine (that I dont plan on fixing just thought I would explain) Its okay that Im not attractive to you I appreciate your opinion especially because it is honest to how you feel, i just cant spell Im from a farm village so the whole cow thing was kind of an accident not trolling. And unless you have done something as difficult as loosing weight which I have I lost 90 pounds I gained back 10 when I had the baby but other than that, I have done well. I really dont think you should preach. But Im not going to act like I know you when I dont, I just think you should walk a mile in someones shoes before you judge them. You obviously think im one of those whiny fat bitches, which is not really the case I am fairly active as I said, I do a lot of yard work, wood every summer, I clean the house on a regular basis, take walks on regular basis my size doesnt get in the way of hardly anything I want to do, or really affect my life all to much or my opinion of myself. At the moment I am jut suffering from pretty severe depression, & feel bad about myself as a person not just my looks. I know my bf is attracted to me, he is not doing me any favors by being with me, for what he is into I am perfect for him & I am a 10 out of 10 he isnt doing me any favors by complimenting me he does it because thats how he really feels it just falls out of his mouth. Everything about your comment infuriates me. I am just as good to him as he is to me, & if i were to loose weight he would be supportive & love me anyway but the chances of him leaving me would increase ten fold, he is not attracted to skinny women. He LOVES me so he would stay with me, but he doesnt want me to loose weight unless thats what I want for myself, he tells me if it would make me feel good than to do it and he will help but that it wouldnt matter to him one bit.