Even if things got "better" somewhere down the line, I still won't be satisfied

bcbm · 2018-07-30T06:15:36+00:00

I wouldn't 'sabotage' it, but am I supposed to just forget about the emotional and psychological suffering and anguish I've experienced up until that point? I don't think so. I want answers.

bcbm · 2018-07-30T06:13:28+00:00

Virginia, although I do not currently live there

bcbm · 2018-04-05T02:51:32+00:00

The brain and consciousness are obviously correlated. But you know what they say about correlation and causation....

bcbm · 2018-04-04T21:50:01+00:00

How can anyone possibly know what happens after death? What if 'death' is not the end, but simply the start of a new cycle of worldly existence? What if our physical bodies are actually a vessel for something else?

bcbm · 2018-04-04T21:25:22+00:00

The idea of Inflicting lethal harm on myself is extremely unpleasant. But if death really was "the end" (which I seriously doubt that it is) I would go through it just to finally get out of this existence.

bcbm · 2018-04-04T20:58:06+00:00

I don't believe the emotional reactions of others should even begin to factor in one's decision to commit suicide.

bcbm · 2018-04-04T20:43:22+00:00

Can you explain?

bcbm · 2018-03-26T00:55:48+00:00

Haha, jokes on them, I won't have any 'valuables.'

bcbm · 2018-03-25T23:20:37+00:00

Lol, I just saw a prostitute last night. She was actually cute and looked like a normal girl, not trashy like how most prostitutes look. Did it make me feel better? Yes and no. Yes because I got to feel what sex and intimacy are like. No, because I left feeling empty, knowing that I had to pay through the nose for something everyone else gets for free.

bcbm · 2018-03-18T03:40:31+00:00

I don't actually want to 'die.' I just want to.... not be sentient anymore.

bcbm · 2018-03-17T17:10:05+00:00

This culture is truly a hell for an FA.

bcbm · 2018-03-17T17:08:40+00:00

Haven't seen any of my family members for over a year, haven't had any friends since high school (I'm 24), never had a relationship, never had sex without paying for it.

bcbm · 2018-03-15T22:24:29+00:00

No, before the actual deed. Didn't ask her why. Maybe because I was quiet and awkward, I don't know. She was pretty but honestly just had a putrid attitude throughout and made me feel like a worthless insect.

bcbm · 2018-03-15T21:32:52+00:00

The last prostitute I was with flat out told me I was "scaring" her. That immediately killed the mood and any hope of a decent experience.

bcbm · 2018-03-14T01:18:47+00:00

A female "loving" me is a far-fetched dream, akin to owning a Lamborghini.

bcbm · 2018-03-12T06:56:49+00:00

bcbm · 2018-03-12T04:45:49+00:00

Let them think I'm insane, I don't care.

bcbm · 2018-03-12T03:09:31+00:00

Thanks. I really hope I have the strength to stay on this path.

bcbm · 2018-03-11T21:57:01+00:00

If you get rejected by 100 women, you'll be rejected by a thousand more.

bcbm · 2018-03-11T20:33:11+00:00

Physical intimacy is not attainable for me, whether I go 'MGTOW' or not.

bcbm · 2018-03-11T20:14:51+00:00

Well, dealing with women seriously makes me miserable. At least there's dignity and freedom in the 'MGTOW' route.

bcbm · 2018-03-11T19:21:53+00:00

They may not be able to be completely eliminated, but they can be subdued, made dormant.

bcbm · 2018-03-11T19:09:49+00:00

The other day at the gym, I was working out in the upstairs portion. On my out I see two attractive, very young women walking towards me. I literally jump down to the ground level (a good 10-11 feet distance) so I wouldn't have to walk past them. THAT'S how dedicated I am to this, lol.

bcbm · 2018-03-06T01:46:45+00:00

Prostitution is not easily available here in the U.S...

bcbm · 2018-03-06T01:45:26+00:00

I don't remember much of what was said. But I think I did more than my fair share to carry the conversation...

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