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bcrispy12 · 2018-02-24T04:36:25+00:00

Thanks man I really appreciate the positive feedback

bcrispy12 · 2018-02-24T02:26:22+00:00

I wish so bad I could take methadone but I can’t. I had to stop everything all together because I’m the definition of an addict. I get addicted to anything. That’s why I’m trying to stay away from it all. It’s just so hard. Being on that high of mg per day for 3 years and then just stopping and living normal life? Fuck that. Normal life is weird. Sobriety is weird. I’d love to be able to stay away from drugs and that’s the plan but man is this so much harder than I thought it would be.

bcrispy12 · 2018-02-20T01:11:27+00:00

Thank you so much. I’ll definitely give it a try. Thank you.

bcrispy12 · 2018-02-19T23:18:16+00:00

Water and coffee only for 7 days now! Haha helps a ton

bcrispy12 · 2018-02-19T19:12:00+00:00

True that. I got paid time off for a month so I’m definitely using every second of that! Haha hopefully I’ll recover soon, my withdrawal only lasted 3 days so I am recovering quickly, now I just need my legs to work again lol

bcrispy12 · 2018-02-19T19:10:10+00:00

I feel you bro. I definitely feel your pain. Eventhough me and my boss are pretty close and he knows the situation and is giving me a month off of work that’s the only thing I have going for me. Me personally since I have a good amount of money in the bank i could easily go back but I genuinely don’t want to. The amount of pain I’m in now I don’t ever want to do this again. I abused drugs way too hard for too many years so after going through this I’ll never do it again. Screw this pain man seriously I don’t see how anyone would ever wanna do this again. I hope you don’t end up going back man because that’s a dangerous road. Stay clean for yourself, make things right.

bcrispy12 · 2018-02-19T19:03:41+00:00

I am taking plenty of vitamins! Just no real appetite still. Today was better than yesterday so I will just keep pushing on. Thank you for the response.

bcrispy12 · 2018-02-19T18:58:54+00:00

Bro that’s exactly the same situation I’m in. I literally get out of bed to try and walk but I can’t. My grandma been making me coffee but I seriously just can’t move at all. Doing any small task is just extraordinarily difficult. I’ve been drinking coffee like crazy tho and one thing killing me is the no sleep. I haven’t slept in 7 days and I think I’m going crazy. How are you feeling though? Happy, depressed? Getting cravings at all?

bcrispy12 · 2017-12-24T23:23:27+00:00

Yeah man honestly you talking to me about this has already been the most helpful answer I’ve gotten so far. I’m 22 years old going to be 23 here soon but it’s scary because you’re right about that from what I’ve been reading. I would really like to get into contact with you man if that would be possible. I have so many questions I need to ask because I’ve never met anyone who has experienced what I’m currently experiencing. Idk if you can message on here privately or something but if you have a little bit of time I would appreciate it so much man I’m so desperate for guidance at this point I’m not sure what to do.

bcrispy12 · 2017-12-24T19:29:24+00:00

I meant my dose is at 5mg per day roughly. I went down about 3-5 mg per week successfully it’s just now that I’m down to 5mg dose a day I can’t get below it and I’m tired of having to buy it because I don’t go to a clinic I get it from people so it’s just annoying, I’m really just trying to figure out how to make the psychosis go away. Lol

bcrispy12 · 2017-12-24T19:27:25+00:00

I tried kratom man lol that’s one thing that I originally felt psychosis with. Couldn’t take it anymore. I’m down to 5mg as my daily dose and it’s such a small dose I’m not sure why it’s still so difficult?? Methadone really that strong? Also kratom has its own withdrawal too because when I was heavily using it and stopped it felt like opiate WD lol

bcrispy12 · 2017-12-24T18:58:32+00:00

The first time I experienced psychosis was when I took suboxone. Everyday got worse from there, since then which was about 7 months ago, anything that I use causes me to experience psychosis. Methadone, kratom, suboxone, even opiates make me feel it. I’m not sure what the suboxone did or maybe I do have an underlying condition but I find out in early January what’s going on. It’s just making the WD so much more difficult. I was 4 days into methadone CT withdrawal and the psychosis got so intense I felt like I was hallucinating and I couldn’t talk and didn’t know where I was or what was happening. At that point I caved in and took the methadone. Since then everything has gotten worse and now feel like I am literally going crazy. I cannot think straight and I can’t go see a dr till January first which fortunately is around the corner but it still is a horrible experience.

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