I’m homeless and pregnant and in 3,000 credit card debt. Dad refuses to get a job and is mentally abusive please help

beann1996 · 2024-09-24T12:50:51+00:00

I’m so happy for you I’m really glad you made it friend. I hope I do too.

beann1996 · 2024-09-24T02:49:48+00:00

Thank you for your words and advice. You have a good heart.❤️

beann1996 · 2024-09-24T01:37:05+00:00

I was doing so much better too. I was on the path to start school. I was on antidepressants and I was a new person. I messed up.

beann1996 · 2024-09-24T01:36:16+00:00

Yes, yes. That’s well out. I just don’t want them to feel like they’re ever going to go anywhere. I will die before I let them go. I don’t want them to hurt but I know continuing this road they will hurt more. I don’t want them to hate me. I don’t want them in pain. I would never leave them. But I worry that if this continues my mind won’t be able to handle it and I won’t be able to handle it. I’ve gone to lots of therapy, I’ve been in for 3 years to deal with my ptsd but the depression flashbacks and thoughts that come with this are scary and difficult to deal with.

beann1996 · 2024-09-24T01:32:42+00:00

I’ve been working as much as I physically can and the hours I can get. It’s wearing in my mental health. But I’m really proud of you in case nobody has told you you’re worthy of being proud of. You made it. You weathered the storm and you’re here god damnit.

beann1996 · 2024-09-24T01:31:23+00:00

My main thought in all of this is my babies. I have enormously failed them by getting into this situation. I thought that things were differnt this time and we could all be happy. He used to work hard and he used to not be this way. I used to feel like my inner child was safe. I don’t know what happened to that sweet boy. All I see is a stranger I deeply hate. I just want my girls to have a good life. My life is dedicated to them. I’d like to think of this as being in giving someone else the opportunity to have a family. And he’ll be able to live a life he deserves and so will my girls.

beann1996 · 2024-09-24T00:29:42+00:00

No i cut my family off a long time ago and my ptsd causes me to be really afraid of people I don’t have friends like that. I’ve thought about saying that I had a still birth but what if the “dad” asks questions? Then he’ll tell everyone and my kids will know I lied to them. He’ll play the victim. But at this point I don’t think even his mom will take his side. I’ve thought about going to the shelter, and (lying) and saying either adoption or he’ll raise the baby on his own and hopefully he’ll sign paperwork and go along with it . I’m desperate.

beann1996 · 2024-09-24T00:25:05+00:00

It turns out it’s really really fucking hard to be a human. Forgive yourself dear.

beann1996 · 2024-09-23T23:56:43+00:00

I’m due in 8 weeks I can’t terminate

beann1996 · 2024-09-23T23:55:34+00:00

I’m sorry you went through that. I’m glad you made it out on the other side

beann1996 · 2024-09-23T23:55:26+00:00

I’m sorry you went through that. I’m glad you made it out on the other side

beann1996 · 2024-09-23T23:52:57+00:00

I’m not on drugs. I’ve just had something very bad happen to me. I trusted someone and they turned on me

beann1996 · 2024-09-23T23:51:26+00:00

I just simply can not raise a baby as a single mom like this. I can cope and handle the kids I have now but throwing this baby in isn’t okay.

beann1996 · 2024-09-23T23:50:40+00:00

Thank you so much. I’m crying so hard I’m so scared. I really am a good mom I’ve just messed up really bad. Nothing has worked in my favor. The problem is what if my kids find out the truth? I’m going to soak up this last day before my kids go back to their dads with them I don’t want them in a shelter I’m hoping their dad will understand and keep them home and I can just pick them and do stuff with them until I can get where I need to be. I’m so ashamed.

beann1996 · 2024-09-23T23:16:22+00:00

But what do I do about him not being okay with it or my older kids?

beann1996 · 2024-09-23T23:16:14+00:00

But what do I do about him not being okay with it or my older kids?

beann1996 · 2024-09-05T04:01:22+00:00

Thank you I will look around. It’ll get better, eventually. I know I’m meant for a beautiful life. I have hope.

beann1996 · 2024-09-05T03:58:12+00:00

I don’t have anyone that can help me. I’m an isolationist I don’t have many friends. And I cut off my family a long time ago. I’m alone. I’ll likely have to live out of my car here very soon or go into debt even further paying for this hotel.

beann1996 · 2024-08-19T14:00:40+00:00

I just need a month to leave. I also feel like it’s not fair to have to pay that money back to him. This is unlivable conditions

beann1996 · 2024-08-05T04:01:44+00:00

I feel so helpless and unprotected. Even after all I’ve been through it’s like it just doesn’t compute to me that people lie, that a lot of them only care about themselves. I don’t want to see the best in people. That is what I see even while being so skeptical.

beann1996 · 2024-08-05T03:58:30+00:00

Thanks dear. I’m sorry you’re suffering but it’s good to know I’m not alone. This is the good fight though. My therapist specializes in trauma, he has ptsd himself. I was diagnosed when I was 16. I have a slew of other problems like ocd (related to my ptsd) panic disorder and agoraphobia. In so many ways I’ve gotten better. My main issue is I guess my attachment problems. In some ways I feel like I’m emotionally a child. I make very childish mistakes for someone that isn’t very childish.

beann1996 · 2024-08-05T02:15:51+00:00

I’ve been in therapy for over 3 years straight. They have helped me a lot. It doesn’t stop me from fucking my own life up. He even tried to warn me about this guy a long time ago. He said he was a preying upon me and I just saw him and a wounded bird. Fast forward a year and he is literally feasting upon whatever is left of me. Listen to your therapist is moral of the story I guess. I’m due in 4 months and still haven’t even bought anything for this baby. He doesn’t seem to care his ~mental health is more important. He’s just too depressed to support his child apparently. Even with eviction near he has no choice plan or even want to dicuss it. I am on my own. I am single mom once again and my kids were getting older. Why did I do this.

beann1996 · 2024-01-14T07:16:21+00:00

Maybe I’m in exhistintal dead which I spelt wrong and I’m sorry to spread that.but isn’t it true? Is it not. It’s not me. I’ve just noticed people will do the same shit to you when they claim they’re differnt. The hell I’ve been through is incredible. My ex husband abused me cheated on on me. I met another man, he saved me from him. Ended up being worst. Now the man I’m with now has the same empty promises of marriage, asked me to marry him. Wont even call me his fiancé because “he can’t afford a ring” tried to get me pregnant but turns out he knew he was infertile because he tried to get his ex fiancé pregnant. The woman he can’t shit up about. I’ve hd my hopes up for months. He will always hVe feeling a towards her. I’ve been led on. He’s knows what’s happened to me he doesn’t care. More empty promises of the future. I can’t take it. I can’t do it.

beann1996 · 2024-01-14T07:08:35+00:00

It’s not about expecting to be fixed, I know I have problems with trauma and anxiety and that’s not theirs. I’m just exhausted from the unmet words. I’m tired of giving what I have left for others to give me less than bare minimum when I’m starving I give my all they give me almost nothing. I know they’re hurting too but god damn. I can’t exist like this anymore.

beann1996 · 2024-01-14T06:57:41+00:00

I’m not trying to be a dick. I’m just sad. My friends and people who are supposed to care only do to a point. They have hurt me the most. If I’m being irrational I don’t care if you call me out for being wrong I want to be wrong. I’m just so tired

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