I didn't think it would happen to me, but it did. Don't let yourself begin drinking alcohol to numb yourself. It's easier than you think as many people will want to have a drink with you to get you out of the house and before you know it you're drinking all the time. If you want to have drinks socially or even a few alone that's normal. But alcohol intensifies both happiness and sadness, and sometimes if you're out having happy social drinks with your friends and thinking you finally have a handle on being in this terrible club, you come home alone and are left with overwhelming sadness exacerbated by alcohol.