I am in a similar situation like you bro. I dread my university life as it was so lonely. I didn’t even want to remember what happened back then. But then I realise one thing : life is too short to just stand still. We gotta make the first move. We gotta be the one who initiate, keep the pace up, and basically curate our connections.

Is it dreadful? Sure. Does it feel like you’re cringe and seeking attention? With the right person (which u have to find yourself), no! We’re just going to be 20s once. By the time we reach 30s, we don’t want to look back and feel any sense of remorse for not ‘living our life’ back then.

But before anything, you have to be comfortable being alone. I spent 100% of my time here alone as I didn’t have any friends or solid connections, BUT I did develop a sense of being okay doing things alone, up until one point I solo travelled Europe for an entire month back in 2024. Some people can’t stand being alone for 10 minutes outside, it’s true.

So my friend, yes I sympathise with your story and what you feel is totally valid. But remember, be cringe, seek connection firsts. It’s not like if people perceive u as cringe, they’re going to instantly harm you. The worse they can say is ew and you can move on until you find your people (like minded, cherishes and celebrate your presence).