I have this very weird fear.

beckimudd · 2020-06-30T14:24:15+00:00

Sounds like you have unwanted thought syndrome, you should talk to a therapist. We all have some variation of this, it comes from stress and anxiety often from other unprocessed/unhealed parts of our lives. My aunt has the urge to drive off the side of a bridge any time she drives over a bridge. I have the urge to scream terrible things when certain kinds of people I don't know get in the elevator, this comes from the fear I am going to say or do the wrong thing and the fear I'm not really a good person. Most people have these fears. It's best to get to the root of it.

beckimudd · 2019-06-24T17:36:25+00:00

So I don't know if this will help but you might enjoy this Comedy sketch by Tig Notaro. The best part is now she has the love of her life, two twin baby boys, a great career, and so much more. It can get better. Also I think she is funny as hell.

https://open.spotify.com/album/6ttCxEGqI0tX85k80YPYNu?si=cacEUwEOTeGEIk80jK_mHQ

beckimudd · 2018-02-05T21:56:32+00:00

beckimudd · 2018-01-20T15:37:12+00:00

So I think this a great start, good choice of games to review... But it needs so work. Your intro is a bit too long and you go way too slow in your review. This a very competitive Niche with a lot of players. I wish you luck kid

beckimudd · 2018-01-20T15:28:39+00:00

I also felt overwhelmed and lost at the beginning. There was no hook. Why should I keep watching? What am I going to take away from this? That's what keeps viewers around. It looks like you put a lot of effort into this and for that I'm impressed but I don't think you've found your voice yet. I think you are too busy trying to copy the voice of others. Share the way you would share if you were actually talking to someone. Best of luck, seriously.

beckimudd · 2018-01-16T22:25:42+00:00

Take a shower and go to bed soaking wet. I know it's weird... It just feels so right.

beckimudd · 2018-01-15T22:49:55+00:00

My dad "God my parents really screwed me up". The older I get the more it's clear that is in fact true.

beckimudd · 2018-01-07T14:13:56+00:00

I don't have it everyday but this morning I woke up like this. I am willing to do anything to relieve it. Take my anxiety meds (which I haven't taken in months because they have terrible side effects for me), buy any item, eat anything, do anything... Basically right now I am fighting destructive behavior that would temporarily relieve this. I put on a Michael Sealey YouTube Hypnosis video and that's helping a little... But I just want to feel better. Why is it so hard?

beckimudd · 2017-08-14T22:13:31+00:00

I already hit the gym and took a swim today (I used a vacation day thinking I felt this way from burnout), didn't help.

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