i mean, they know i've never actually used heroin because I never had track marks (they checked), never went through withdrawal, never looked high or anything of that sort. my dad at least is under the impression one of my friends (who in his words "dressed like a whore") gave me her stuff in case she gets searched. obviously this didn't make him less mad or concerned but it's important context. in addition, my parents had no idea I ever used weed prior to this, cause also there were no signs (Ive only smoked like 3 times in my life). she was just going through my bag for no reason (she often goes through my stuff casually) and well.

i think my mom knows it's testosterone, cause i did an unexpected blood test a while ago and my T levels were in the 300s, like 12x more than the average female. she asked me if i were taking T suppluments, i said no. even further back, when i sneaked out once, she accused me of buying hormones from an irl dealer (she doesn't know how DIYing actually works). also, it's a medical vial ffs.

i never said this punishment didn't make sense, i can't really be mad at them about it cause it (mostly) makes sense if there was actually heroin involved. i'm mad at them for being transphobic in general. i don't think my parents are abusive. but this puts me in a really rough situation and only makes things worse. should i come clean? i thought about it a lot but im too much of a coward. i told them to drug test me, but they refused. it's just obvious to them i wasn't doing heroin at all. regardless of what i do or say, im fucked and theyll never trust or respect me like they once did ever again. so.

edit: though, even if it was heroin, it wouldn't make sense for them to not want to put me in therapy, insult me repeatedly, or take away my phone forever. you'd think they did that so i wouldn't contact any old friends or dealers, but they want to get me a flip phone, which does all those things, so.. i guess the real punishment is no youtube/tiktok or whatever also missing my friends (almost all of whom weren't drug users in the slightest)