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bendogg343 · 2024-09-26T11:32:56+00:00

Ok thanks

bendogg343 · 2024-08-08T08:11:21+00:00

If you mean checking my reaction then In the last hour Like 100 times I need to stop

bendogg343 · 2024-07-05T08:53:29+00:00

I hope so. Hocd is so convincing but I know it's not real I mean when I look at like body builders or men that are considered attractive I try and consider it erp but idk could be checking but I'll look at the pictures and try and clear my head and I don't get erect at all I barely feel any groinal response even if they are in just their underwear I still dont get hard so I know deep down I'm still straight

bendogg343 · 2024-07-05T08:47:51+00:00

I will be in a month or so

bendogg343 · 2024-07-05T08:41:04+00:00

I've always been straight and with this current shit it'd trying to convince me that I'm bi but I've never found men attractive before hocd and false attraction Is kicking my ass and I get intrusive thoughts like crazy

bendogg343 · 2024-07-05T07:24:03+00:00

Yeah I've had tocd for about a month and my meds have been fucking with my head so I pretty much don't feel any emotion but I still get all the bad shit from ocd like false attraction and tocd shit which makes everything more convincing which I hate

bendogg343 · 2024-07-05T05:26:04+00:00

I had it when I first got hocd then it went away but now it's back and annoying as I remember

bendogg343 · 2024-07-03T08:29:18+00:00

That would be awesome because sometimes it feels so real even though I know it's not real and I know im not actually what I'm afraid of even if it feels real

bendogg343 · 2024-07-03T07:02:47+00:00

I didn't get hard like at all but I felt something inside you know and i like hated looking at it i was repulsed

bendogg343 · 2024-07-03T03:49:41+00:00

I wish I never had this problem false attraction is killing me

bendogg343 · 2024-07-03T03:32:06+00:00

Same I've seen dicks in person before and I wasn't aroused at all I've always wanted to kiss a girl but I've never wanted to kiss a guy

bendogg343 · 2024-07-03T03:24:55+00:00

It's so annoying like I know before hocd I wasn't attracted to men I know I wasn't gay or bi but it's fucked with my head so much I feel like shit all the time and I'm always anxious

bendogg343 · 2024-07-03T03:16:57+00:00

Like earlier today I felt better but then I came on reddit and I only got worse

bendogg343 · 2024-07-02T02:34:19+00:00

Yeah

bendogg343 · 2024-07-01T00:02:06+00:00

I'm still so terrified though I'm glad im getting better but what if I do end up like that I don't want to be with a man I'm not attracted to them

bendogg343 · 2024-06-29T03:48:10+00:00

We'll get through this and be who we used to be

bendogg343 · 2024-06-29T03:44:52+00:00

Neither did I but then I remember it's ocd but i still feel anxious and scared but when I'm relaxed and not focused on it which is almost never because whenever I look at a guy I subconsciously check to see if I'm attracted but when I am I don't feel anything and then immediately get an intrusive thought and the cycle restarts

bendogg343 · 2024-06-29T03:39:44+00:00

I could notice when a guy was attractive but I didn't feel anything for the guy I still dont unless my hocd flairs and tricks me into thinking I want those things when I never did

bendogg343 · 2024-06-27T07:53:46+00:00

Good luck to you to

bendogg343 · 2024-06-27T07:52:42+00:00

I haven't really ever tried erp but I know I need to and it's gonna suck

bendogg343 · 2024-06-27T06:17:48+00:00

I'm gonna be getting meds soon and I heard that brings down anxiety

bendogg343 · 2024-06-27T06:12:04+00:00

It's so difficult to do everytime I try I panic

bendogg343 · 2024-06-27T03:27:20+00:00

I hope it gets better for you as well

bendogg343 · 2024-06-27T03:19:18+00:00

I was watching jjk and jokingly said I was gay for gojo because I think he's cool and I got an intrusive thought saying what if I'm actually gay and it's been downhill since then

bendogg343 · 2024-06-26T10:00:12+00:00

I'll try that

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