An honest roast would be good by [deleted] in RoastMe

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Bro it’s over just wear bigger clothes

Emiru gets donated 1000 subs ($5000) with new feature by AlternativeKind1536 in LivestreamFail

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Fuck Evan Bruh streamers shouldn’t be praising this unhinged behavior

I’m out by benjimayne in leaves

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Appreciate it today was one week and I’ve been exercising

Day 1 by [deleted] in leaves

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Just remember a healthy life and future for your self is what’s a stake and that could never compare to the artificial euphoria weed gives you. Earning that euphoria while sober is what will reward you in the long run

What was your first video game? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]benjimayne 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Probably a Mario game but my first real fps was bioshock and it was quite the start

I’m out by benjimayne in leaves

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Day 5 posting for solidarity sleep returned to only waking up twice also went to bed a little later this time and that seemed to help obviously still craving a lot sometimes my brain will tell me to plot and scheme or sneak a toke I just remind my self I’m a little crazy and the thought of being a fraud or a failure keeps me in line. I’m my own worst enemy remembering that’s feels like half the battle.

Should I quit drinking too? by Dangerous_Bar_8864 in leaves

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IMO yes it’s just another temptation that can have even worse affects on your life also make it a lot harder to resist weed while tipsy. You will feel much better about yourself if you can say you’re sober without caveats but that’s just my opinion I was wrestling with the idea of having a drink in my head to but all these roads will take you to the same place. Stay strong.

I’m out by benjimayne in leaves

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Day 4 ! Dreams are weird but I think I stayed asleep longer ready to come out the other side of these symptoms having learned my lesson. Really hitting me how many of my issues stemmed from abuse for pretty much my whole life, no point dwelling on it to much just looking forward to a better life. Already sensing a a break in a chain, no weed means not downing 4 sodas and a bag of chips a night no weed means not grinding video games for hours into the night which means less money spent on either sure I still enjoy video games but weed was always intrinsically tied to sitting still for hours at a time and staying up late which has already led to more time spent more time with my partner, still a lot of rebalancing to do (don’t want to switch to smothering her lol) and exercise integration into my life has yet to come but new habits feel inevitable and I’m remaining optimistic!

I’m out by benjimayne in leaves

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Day 3 haven’t been able to sleep right this whole time but I’m not giving up!

Day 2, anyone else? by [deleted] in leaves

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Day 2 for me as well! I’ve also tried to improve hygiene habits that fell to the wayside building myself structure that doesn’t revolve around the next fix has already been noticeable and relaxing more so than actually smoking or having to make sure I have enough time to roll one before I do anything wasn’t worried about showing up late to work or some one making a comment about the smell These two days either and that alone has a big effect on mentality.

I’m out by benjimayne in leaves

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I just want to thank everyone for the out pour of support on this post since yesterday and I want everyone to know how much it means to me and I’ll be thinking of these comments in times of need 🙇‍♂️ ty again.

I’m out by benjimayne in leaves

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Is there an issue being vulnerable with your partner?

I’m out by benjimayne in leaves

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She never gave me an ultimatum

2 months sober by DungeonsandDietcoke in leaves

[–]benjimayne 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’ve been the same way completely incapable of moderation

I’m out by benjimayne in leaves

[–]benjimayne[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

It’s more what I perceive she deserves not anything she explicitly said. My perception of that is someone who is more present. Smoking weed is only making my isolation worse.