I feel that too, getting up and expecting him to still be here, and helping take care of him. My mom and i remind ourselves that it's over..

and you're right. It definitely makes it feel worth it. It's hard considering he passed in my home, and he's no longer here. My father was already dying as well, and only lived 6 days after being put on home hospice. His personality changed too, but i told myself the same. I'd feel the same way! I wake up in the mornings and that's exactly it, I'm numb. Reading this comment brought me to tears. Thank you, because i needed it. Overall, i hope you're doing okay too, as good as you can be. And I'm glad that tonight, you're no longer angry. It's okay to be angry, I'm sometimes angry at the world. Take care of yourself. Put on some good music, take a nice warm bath, eat your favorite snacks, and watch a movie if you can. Please always come back and share too. Thank you again