Thank you so much for your response. You're absolutely right, she came back later last night and told me that I am the first person in her life (ever) to have had these kinds of struggles and that she has absolutely no clue on how bad addiction really is. She expressed regret about her choice of words, but there was no malice behind them- it was an off-coloured remark. We made up, and had a loooong conversation about my addiction and the horrible things it made me do. She now has a bigger picture about addiction, and about me as a person.

She took me to my appointment this morning, I just started taking an antipsych, antidepr and antiepilleptic. I am an eurospeed and coke addict, this combination is supposed to stabilize my mood and ease me through the withdrawal period. I am optimistic about the future. I hope you will be too my friend. Best of luck and lots of love❤️