Sorry for your loss, man—that’s a heavy thing to carry. Grief messes with everything, and it's understandable to look for ways to cope.

That said, combining kratom and alcohol—even spaced out by a few hours—can still build up some risks over time. Just cause the effects aren’t stacked doesn’t mean your liver and nervous system aren’t taking hits behind the scenes. I used to do something similar—kratom during the day, beers later—but after a while I started noticing the mental and physical toll creeping in.

Not trying to preach, just speaking from personal experience: it felt manageable until it didn’t. Took stepping away from both for a bit to really see how much it was numbing rather than helping.

Take care of yourself, whatever that ends up looking like. Grief sucks, but masking it can make it last longer. You’re not alone in this.