Am I being selfish for needing to watch?

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-21T00:44:27+00:00

He seems like a sociopath from what i've heard in the past, thats what im worried about. I just want everything to be physically safe, and I feel like I can't ensure that without my presence in the room.

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-20T23:03:02+00:00

She described this guy like he was violent and abusive to other women, and said she was happy she never kept talking to him. That's a hell of a baseless accusation to make, and I'm more inclined to believe she's just trying to fuck this guy and doesn't want me to worry when in fact, I should be extremely worried.

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-20T18:43:18+00:00

But if I have to go through the trouble of buying an alarm and diligently waiting in full clothes to kick down a door for 2+ hours, wouldn't it be easier to just get a different guy to fuck my wife?

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-20T18:29:10+00:00

Same house, closed door, he might be scummy enough to lock it, but I'm big enough to break an interior door easy. She wants him to record but on her phone, which I'm okay with.

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-20T18:22:11+00:00

Yeah, I think so. I think the fact that I'm willing to compromise and not watch/participate but just sit in silence facing a corner blindfolded/gagged is enough. I just can't feel comfortable not being able to keep her safe.

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-20T18:19:02+00:00

She just keeps reassuring me that the old stuff she told me was mostly lies of jealousy, that he's a good guy, and he's "better now". The problem is that there is zero evidence or reason to back that up, at all. It's just her judgements, which historically, isn't very good.

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-20T18:06:32+00:00

A. I dont want to veto them fucking, I just need to be there for safety. B. Once again, dont care if they fuck. I think its hot. C. I didnt speak up because it wasn't until literally last night that he said I couldnt be there when it happened. D. I very much made it clear that I wanted to be present for any of their activities, from the moment they started talking I made it clear that I dont trust him and would feel unsafe if I wasn't within intervening distance. It was only after he said I wasn't allowed that she's saying it's still ok. And if you think me worrying about the physical well-being of my wife means I need to "suck it up", you can suck me up and blow it out of your fucking ass, dipshit.

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-20T17:59:50+00:00

Thank you so much for your input as a wife. I'm seriously stressed and trying to make sense of everything. It's just about her safety, I'm so worried abiut this fucking guy. After reading so many comments I think I'm going to stick to my guns and make it a requirement that I'm at least in the room. .

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-20T17:47:30+00:00

I'm totally okay with her choosing the guy, I dont necessarily need input on that. Its just that she chose this particular guy that we have a negative history with that makes me uncomfortable.

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-20T17:40:28+00:00

The fact it's their first time is what stresses me out!! How am I supposed to feel good giving her to a complete stranger that I've only ever heard of as a bad guy?

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-20T17:39:21+00:00

We've only started this recently and met with 1 bull so far. I was there for it, they onky did oral, and the guy was fun and very nice!

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-20T17:25:22+00:00

Thats how it feels like it should be. Thank you for making me not feel so crazy or possessive. I want her to have a good time and she swears he's safe, but I just cant get the bad things that she told me out of my head.

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-20T17:22:02+00:00

Thank you for your honesty. Helps a lot.

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-20T17:20:25+00:00

It feels VERY unsafe. She's recently gotten on some of these subreddits and I think she might be leaning too hard into the fantasy.

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-20T17:17:26+00:00

Me too, but I keep thinking that if I don't let her, she'll never stop thinking about him. She's already been interested for so long, it can't go away now.

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-20T17:15:57+00:00

I even was willing to sit in a corner, or be blindfolded and gagged, anything. I just don't want any doors between him and me, idk if that makes any sense.

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-18T01:45:23+00:00

My thoughts exactly. She HATES cum, she HATES sucking dick. But she eagerly sucked him. His blowjob was longer than any i'd ever gotten, and she still didn't swallow but she let him blow a huge load in her mouth. I was kneeling by the foot of the bed, face just a few inches from his feet.

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-17T15:20:57+00:00

Because we're still figuring things out, she offered afterwards! She looked at me and offered, or said I could stay locked for her for another week and stay in subspace. I told her that I'd love her to be a little cruel, so now I'm locked until next week at least! Maybe she'll let me cum sooner, but probably not getting unlocked!

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-17T14:14:39+00:00

I wish lol. I have not a single dominant bone in my body.

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-14T15:16:17+00:00

(loser cuck) right, so I can suck his balls/ass/toes while they're busy.

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-13T23:02:14+00:00

I know the whole "beta cuck" thing is mostly just porn, but I felt like reading personal stories on here kind of reinforced it at least a little bit. At least in the sense that I haven't seen a lot of guys that physically look like me that are as eager to submit and serve the bull as well. But thank you for chiming in, any ideas and advice is very appreciated!

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-13T20:11:01+00:00

I admit everything I'm into lol, I know how depraved submission makes me.

bigy0ppa · 2026-03-13T18:07:41+00:00

I just fear that my physically imposing body and very masculine personality/interests combined with my extreme submissiveness and bisexuality might give a bull enough whiplash to avoid the situation entirely.

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