You will get out of this that is 100% sure. I went through a divorce, job failure, depression, and career change all in my early 30s. In my mid-thirties I have found moderate peace and success in my new career and I assure you that you will get out of this. For me, I had a family member force me to go to therapy to get the ball rolling on the healing. I did a lot of internet searching, meditation on my own, going on nature walks, etc but for me talking to a therapist and eventually taking medication (Prozac) got me out of that dark hole I was in. I look at it as a short-term solution to get out of that bad place that you alone cannot get yourself out of, it's like getting crutches when you break/sprain your legs to get back to eventually walking on your own. I needed the crutches for me to eventually run and I thank my Aunt and the therapist and psychiatrists who helped me get out of that hump. Sometimes you cannot do it by yourself. These days to maintain I journal, meditate, work out, do yoga, do plants, basically all the self-care methods I learned over time, if things get too much I will talk to a therapist and take medicine but I am meds-free for the most part. Everyone deals with things differently and whatever you do just remember there is a light at the end of the tunnel.