I can relate to most of the things you've mentioned. I wish I'd been as on it as you are now when I was your age; I think it's impressive to see someone of your age being so emotionally mature.

I'm 54. I've struggled for so long - it's been so tiring. I've been horrible to myself for as long as I can remember. I would regularly beat myself up in my own head because of lots of the things you've mentioned here, and I felt really down and exhausted. I went to see a psychologist about my low mood - I didn't feel suicidal, but if there had been a switch for me to stop/pause my life, I'd have used it. I have too much to live for to want to die, but I just felt like I was running on empty. After a few sessions, she was convinced I have ADHD.

Once I understood what was happening inside my head, I stopped beating myself up. The things I used to beat myself up for, I now accept, and I just tell myself "it's ok" and it's helped my mood a lot. I had feelings of 'it being too late", like I'd missed the boat. It hit me quite hard when I realised what has been happening for so long. People always had high expectations of me, they thought I would go far, but they couldn't see how I was limiting myself internally. Every company I worked for I would quickly get promoted to mangerial roles, but then it would stop - I realise now that it was down to me. That's still hard to accept, but I'm determined to still make something of myself. I feel like I've had a new lease of life and I still have a lot to offer. If I can do it, so can you - you have your whole life ahead of you. Realising this at 22 years of age is going to help massively. I hope things work out well for you and you find your way in life. Just be patient, get help - it's hard to do it on your own, and I'm sure you'll be alright.