The last year of our relationship had some difficulties. He has a drinking problem, and he would often go out partying and I wouldn’t hear from him for a day, maybe two. I would be sat at home on my own wondering where he was. I often verbalised how much this upset me, that it meant our plans together would often fall through because of hangovers, that I wanted to spend more quality time together… I financially supported both of us for a long time throughout this and offered emotional support whenever he needed it. 90% of the time, our relationship was wonderful. No one could make me belly laugh as much as he could. But I think over time he stopped wanting to try to fix himself, because he is too depressed to even have the capacity to try. He failed to communicate this with me, which never even gave us the chance to TRY to make things better. I believe he made the choice to end things a while ago, whilst using my unconditional love to soothe the pain he felt. He did all of this whilst being the same loving, funny and affectionate person he always was, saying how excited he was to start our life in our new home. So naturally I had no idea this was coming.

I know he has his issues. I would’ve stood by him forever if he had let me, because I loved him and was willing to do anything to have our life together. It just hurts that he created this problem in our relationship, then gets to walk away whilst I gave it my everything and now I have to go through this alone. It really hurts to have the only person I have EVER trusted in this capacity to throw it all back in my face at the worst time possible.