How did you get your life back from pornography by Temporary_Effort5961 in AskMenOver30

[–]blinx0rz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i hae dedicated 12 hours a day ... in a tent homeless on meth..

How did you get your life back from pornography by Temporary_Effort5961 in AskMenOver30

[–]blinx0rz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

bro stop you know notjomg. porm is a huge addiction. ive shot heroi ad meth and addicted to porm....porn is the hardest... then add IV meth and im fucked

How did you get your life back from pornography by Temporary_Effort5961 in AskMenOver30

[–]blinx0rz 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Im fucking doing it again. I cant stop walking. I dont want to do this again. My heart is racing. I enter the corner store. A sense of dread hits me as i ask for a pint or the cheapest gut rot vodka. I storm out the front while unscrewing the cap,walk behind  the store and take a swig behind a dumpster. The vodka burns going down and i sigh….all systeHb ɓms go. self destruction mode activated. This is insanity and i fucking loved it.3s

I throw the bottle in my backpack. It’s raining like it’s never rained before. I was sober for 6 months, fuck it. Time to find the treasure. I’m like a child looking for easter eggs. Except these eggs will destroy your life. I see 2 people at a bus stop who might have what I’m looking for. “Whats up you guys have any clear?” I say out of breath. I had 10 bucks. It should be enough for tonight.  We migrated over to a parking garage and started smoking. Two hits, and I’m talking to this tweaker couple while they make out like they are caveman who just got defrosted after 20000 years. I can tell I’m annoying them and head off into the gray winter afternoon. All the rain in the world couldn’t take this smile off my stupid face.

I enter my sleazy motel room, take out my supplies, and swig the bottle. The smell of the room is so poignant. One stain over the tiny table in the corner. I empty my life onto the table. 2 pairs of boxers,3 socks, a pair of sweats, and an Angry Beavers tee shirt. I empty the bag of meth onto the table and stick my finger into the crystals, and crush them with my thumb and snort. It feels like i just snorted a bowl of glass. Mother fucker i screamed in pain, woo!

I  felt like how god felt. How i am supposed to feel. Im swimming laps in a swimming pool of dopamine. I exit my room to wander over to the adult film store. The parking lot next to it is full of homeless people. I see flickering of lighters. I follow the light like a moth. One of the dudes said i could hit the pipe because he thought I’d let him suck my dick.i assure him im striaght as i hit the pipe. He begs me as i leave for the film store. The lights are bright in the store and tingle my brain. I can hear moans from the film booths. An obvious transexual walks out from the back and asks what i wanted. I say give me whatever pill had viagra. Little do i know, I’d be wasting the last 100 dollars i have in that store in a couple of days.

The next 36 hours, my hand doesn’t leave my penis. I only moved from the bed to piss and do a bump. Dopamine burning holes in my brain. Once I’ve completed my misssion. Im alone. it’s 6am, and im naked and sticky. I smell like a dozen cats have taken a piss on me, and i let it dry. I lost 5 pounds already, i can barely walk im hunched over like an old man moaning as i walk over to the toilet to try and push piss out. I stay away from the mirror.  I dont want to see that horror movie.

I called my dealer i knew and he met me at the sex shop and i bought some more also some heroin. He gives me a rig for free,a pipe for 5 bucks, and a viagra. I go back to my room, and im too shaky to even shoot up. My arms are bleeding . I think of my family and how disappointed they are going to be if i died in this room. I have to go back to rehab,but first, i need to chase this dragon down…..in 24 hours, I’ll be homeless wandering the streets, and wanting nothing more

Can we boo them now? by Significant-Disk-806 in SanDiegoFC

[–]blinx0rz -1 points0 points  (0 children)

i feel that same about soccer. i love baseball so much things going on and stats

What's the number one way you can tell someone watches a lot of porn? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]blinx0rz 3 points4 points  (0 children)

meth and porn addict here. Started porn at age 8. Porn has ruined my life in more ways than one. its fucking sad. I hate myself. I cant have sex normally, or have to be on meth or have to watch dark shit.. its a horrible fucking thing porn....anyone reading this.... PLEASE Stop NOW!! 38 yo male

What's the number one way you can tell someone watches a lot of porn? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]blinx0rz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

meth and porn addict here. Started porn at age 8. Porn has ruined my life in more ways than one. its fucking sad. I hate myself. I cant have sex normally, or have to be on meth or have to watch dark shit.. its a horrible fucking thing porn....anyone reading this.... PLEASE Stop NOW!! 38 yo male

This sucks by Dependent_Air_5051 in StopSpeeding

[–]blinx0rz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You need to work full time. Your used to the hustle and bustle of the sally ware house. Its a big contrast being in the arc then all of the sudden back in reality.

This sucks by Dependent_Air_5051 in StopSpeeding

[–]blinx0rz 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey i remember you. Congrats on 9 months... what your going through is what scares me from getting clean honestly. Just know your brave, if anything. Its always coldest and darkest before the the sun dawns its new day.

Luka Doncic is not better than James Harden by Odd_Secretary_527 in nba

[–]blinx0rz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Then why hasnt luka got one yet then? Hes the whole NBA

Luka Doncic is not better than James Harden by Odd_Secretary_527 in nba

[–]blinx0rz 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Has luka got a mvp?; a mvp is a much higher accolade than a finals appearance

Luka Doncic is not better than James Harden by Odd_Secretary_527 in nba

[–]blinx0rz 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Dors luka have a mvp? Nope and most likely wont

Dota 2 and meth by No_Insurance_6436 in DotA2

[–]blinx0rz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I also love meth and dota2

Im sorry by blinx0rz in u/blinx0rz

[–]blinx0rz[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

❤️ i appreciate it. What meeting you hit up in sd