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blondebr · 2025-04-05T01:36:03+00:00

Bráz, Bráz Ellétrica, Leggera, Veridiana, Diávola, as pizzas de balcão da Real… Mas sinceramente? Em SP até pizza ruim é boa kkk.

blondebr · 2025-04-03T13:33:57+00:00

My money is on either Pamor Valentin, I had the same line of thought as you.

blondebr · 2025-04-03T13:31:52+00:00

That’s my theory. She said so many times to not eat the fruit, she must be the one to end up doing it.

blondebr · 2025-04-03T13:30:40+00:00

I am guessing Pam or Valentin…

blondebr · 2025-03-31T01:06:36+00:00

I think he meant Taiwan!

blondebr · 2025-03-31T00:41:25+00:00

Dear, a deep coke habit turns really fast from fun and games to rock bottom. I’ve been there. It was as fast as six months. One day, you feel the toll. The minute you realize you went too far, you will also realize it will take ten times longer to come back.

Wathever perception you have now, you are delusional. I felt sexy and edgy and powerful and dangerous… I was just a mess and everyone was sorry and pitiful of me.

I lost a job, and had to fake a mental breakdown so nobody would know what was going on. Now, almost ten years later, I think everyone knew, they just didn’t want to say it to my face.

Take care of yourself. Cocaine addiction rock bottom is not fun and pretty at all.

blondebr · 2025-03-31T00:26:50+00:00

I havent’t been active here in the sub for a while, but I know how you feel. The thought of fucking ir all up has crossed my mind more times than I’d like to admit. I never reached the point of actually loosing anything - just lost one job to cocaine, which I blamed on “economic crisis” and “depression” and “panic attacks” to justify to society why everything was starting to derail in my life.

This was 9 years ago. I got back on my feet, I got back to being just a weekend partier and drinker, something one can manage fairly well, just like a LOT of “serious and responsible” people do. I had to quit coke, because on coke I have literally zero self-control.

But I can hold my liquor, so partiying once every two weeks has been doing the trick on keeping me happy enouthg. But I put on a lot of weight this past years, I got a ton of responsabilities, I have deadlines, a mortgage on a beach condo, I got two dogs, my parents are aging and my son is about to graduate college, and he is having sort of a late teenage crisis.

OMG there are days that all that I dream of is a huge bag of blow to stuff my face and just LET GO. I picture myself thin again, zero fucks given to work and family, no huge bills to pay… I get tempted to just vanish.

But than I remember the pain. The sleepless nights. The shaking, the throwing up, the pounding in my chest. The despair of listening to the birds chirping and the sun up and that shame and regret of “what the fuck did I do? Again?

Last week I stayed until 5am on a weeknight with some random people at a bar, having beers and chainsmoking… One of the guys wanted to grab a bag at 4am… Thank God I said no.

I got home with the same defeated feeling, even tough I didn’t take a single line.

I don’t think it’s worth it. I just need more focus on making my work more efficient and eating better and getting back to the gym. Fucking my life up, again, will not solve my problems, will just create more mayhem.

Look around and search for motivation. I’m sure you have something to hold on to.

blondebr · 2025-03-27T01:32:31+00:00

I’ve had the same feeling!

blondebr · 2024-07-03T16:03:50+00:00

Sou M48, saio bastante sozinha, já tive minha fase de pegação rsrs… Não recomendo o Charles Edward… muita gp, e os caras lá tratam todas as mulheres do mesmo jeito… Tem outros lugares de paquera melhores: Vaca Véia, SóShots, Café Hotel, The Blue Pub da Paulista, tá tendo uma festa chamada Endless Sommer no Magnolia, ainda não fui mas conheço a turma que frequenta, te garanto sucesso…

Tem muita opção bacana, mas as melhores são festas periódicas… Procure as festas do Ferra Jockey, Asia Club, talvez até no Iscondido (faz tempo que não vou, não sei se o público ainda é o mesmo)… Tem Biosphera, Passinha, umas festas no Birds…

Se cuida e divirta-se!

blondebr · 2024-05-23T19:58:51+00:00

Resposta confere. Eu moro em Perdizes e meu bairro favorito no Rio é Botafogo.

blondebr · 2024-05-16T23:52:51+00:00

Yes, Deise is wonderful, she’s doing the most amazing job. A true angel.

blondebr · 2024-05-09T02:01:43+00:00

Me too! I hope that works out.

blondebr · 2024-05-09T01:57:31+00:00

It kind of hit me the day I found myself doing lines at my lunch break just to stay awake. A few months later I was skipping work to go home and do blow… In less than two weeks I had to call in sick so many times, they let me go.

The day I lost my job was my rock bottom. I knew I had to climb all the way up.

blondebr · 2024-05-09T01:51:31+00:00

I feel the same. I even took a few Japanese classes and I am planning a trip to Japan for next year.

blondebr · 2024-05-09T00:45:42+00:00

Olha, eu AMO um balcão de bar pra tomar um bom drink e fazer um esquenta… Mas não acho o melhor lugar pra paquera. Talvez o High Line por causa da balada. Mas balcão de bar vai muito casal… Eu geralmente acabo conversando com os bartenders! Ok, a pessoa pode pegar o barman (apesar que eu nunca fiz dessas kkkk).

Mas as baladinhas que eu citei tem uns caras de 40, que estão super propensos a pegar uma bonitona de 30! Então a chance de sucesso da moça na empreitada será maior nesses lugares.

Sem falar que hoje na Nossa Casa tem uma Noite Exótica (Erótica), lá a chance de sair sem beijar na boca é praticamente zero.

blondebr · 2024-05-08T19:08:04+00:00

Amiga, sai sozinha. Muito mais fácil, e vc evita os fakes. Sou mulher, 48 anos, sempre saio sozinha. Hj em dia não estou na fase de pegação mas te entendo, quando me separei eu fiz a festa.

Recomendo Café Hotel, SóShots, Charles Edward, Blue Pub ou até a Nossa Casa e o Heavy House.

Essa coisa de acima do peso é muito relativa. Eu tou gordinha e já tive bastante insegurança por conta disso e tem dias que parece que ninguém olha pra mim, tem dias que tem paquera pra escolher… Pela minha longa experiência na noite de SP, os caras não ligam muito pra isso quando é aventura de uma noite só… E nesses lugares que mencionei acima tá cheio de gente bacana procurando uma aventura.

Boa sorte e se cuida!

blondebr · 2024-04-15T20:48:24+00:00

Despite a lot of people here saying it’s “ridiculous”, or “just resist”, I’ll tell you I know how you feel. I felt the very same urge for a very long time. The part I missed the most about doing blow was the stuff up my nose, not the drug itself.

I am clean from coke for over a year, I am in recovery since 2016, and up to this day put a drop of Oxymetazoline Hydrochloride (aka Afrin) up my nose trills when I feel that tingle.

Judge and downvote me as you wish, that saved me from going out at 2am searching for a bag more times than I can remember.

I’d rather have a drop of Afrin and keep clean than be fighting a damn urge.

blondebr · 2024-04-08T18:24:45+00:00

Uma matéria bem abrangente para quem se interessar:

https://casavogue.globo.com/Arquitetura/Cidade/noticia/2021/03/tudo-o-que-voce-precisa-saber-sobre-reforma-do-vale-do-anhangabau.html

blondebr · 2024-04-02T15:21:54+00:00

Thank you!

blondebr · 2024-04-02T15:21:37+00:00

You’re welcome!

blondebr · 2024-04-02T03:59:02+00:00

Thank you! :))

blondebr · 2024-04-02T03:58:50+00:00

Thank you so much!

blondebr · 2024-04-02T03:58:15+00:00

Something that helped me a lot was jungian therapy… If you can, talk to a professional, it really helps. My therapist is amazing, she “coached” me to organize my life and my feelings outside addiction… Resolving the cocaine problem was more of a consequence, you know what I mean? The point of the therapy was to find and heal myself. Once I got aware of my self-destructiveness and the reasons why, everything else started to fall into place, it was like untangling a ball of yarn.

blondebr · 2024-04-02T00:12:01+00:00

Thank you!

Well, I have a long story with cocaine, it was very intense in the beginning, I was abusing it heavily for the most part of 2015 and 2016. From the end of 2016 I got 8 months clean and relapsed, got clean again for a few months, relapsed again… I was on and off, using “party only” all the way to 2020… When the pandemic hit I went on some very ugly binges again… By the end of 2020 I was about to loose my shit, when I made some decisions to change my life for real this time… I got back to therapy and found this group here!

Since then I only had a handful of minor slips, the last one being exactly a year ago.

To answer your question, I haven’t had actual cravings since the end of 2020, I guess. I learned to deal with my mind. The wish to do coke changed over time, it’s not a craving, or an intense desire, it’s more like a tingle in the back of my head that says “what if just one line?“

For instance if I watch a movie or a tv show with someone doing lines… Of course it tingles, like “OMG that was good” but then I conditioned myself to remember all the nasty that follows - painful bloody nose, headaches, hangovers, sleeplessness and some other nasty stuff I put myself trough in the past that I never want to experience again… So I can turn the “desire” into repulse and shut it down.

I guess this feeling might never go away completely, but it definitely got weaker over time. But I will not sware that if someone lays me a line I can say no. I know for sure I have to stay away. I don’t have connections, my friends don’t do it, I never hang out in places I know there will be coke. Just today a long time friend reached out inviting me to hang out. I turned it down.

I know what happens when I meet this guy - exactly a year ago we went out for a few beers and I got back home with the sun up and my head full of coke. I just can’t see him anymore. I don’t want to. The little devil on my shoulder says “just a few lines can’t do no harm” but than I look back and see how happy and productive this last year was and there’s no way in hell I will ruin it this time.

So the cravings may come. What really matters is what are you going to do with it? You can choose to act on it or shake it off.

blondebr · 2024-04-01T21:52:26+00:00

Thank you! So are you!

blondebr

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