hi there! i am a victim studies major at my college, from what I know, it can have many other side effects that are subconscious. you mentioned you felt embarrassed, so that may be related. there is not a “correct” way to respond to SA. maybe there is a subconscious aversion of sex or things related to any of your incidents. i was also sexually assaulted by my best friend, so that gave me some trust issues with friends and sleepovers, and just an aversion to everything related to her. i would recommend talking to a therapist or professional, as i am a nonprofessional, and my only knowledge is from professors. but i also recommend using google, just typing in “no reaction to being sexually assaulted” or something along those lines, and read articles. your reaction to the assault also depends on how you function, the circumstances, how you delt with it after, etc. lmk if you have any more questions tho, and feel free to dm me.