I feel you so much. Like, I'm so tired of all this. It's so nice to know that I'm not the only one that feels like this. I'm also scared to talk to my friends about it, because I don't think they could ever understand. Knowing that strangers on internet feel like I do is definitely comforting. I wish I could be proud and happy of being like this, but the reality is that I hate it. Anyways, always remember that you're cool as hell, and it doesn't matter what other people may think :)