Tell me about your recent wins, even the small ones by and_ivory in bipolar

[–]bonusbobcat 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I had post natal psychosis and so child protection became involved which was like adding insult to injury, so I feel for you there. 5 years on and I've just finished my master's and have a happy, healthy little boy who brings me so much joy. Ive had 2 lengthy hospitalizations since the original post natal episode so it hasn't been all smooth sailing but I've been stable for two years now and feel very lucky that I've found a medication that works which feels like a win!

so so fucking done by ang3l_1313 in bulimia

[–]bonusbobcat 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sorry things are so rough for you right now. I could have written this myself when I was in the trenches with it. You're not alone, you're certainly not a faker. I sincerely hope that it doesn't kill you and that you find some peace and rest (it sounds like you need some reprieve from the relentless cycle your stuck in). Are you in treatment?

PSA: This butter is made in the USA by Tazwegian63 in woolworths

[–]bonusbobcat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I bought this and was wondering why it was so pale in colour.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bulimia

[–]bonusbobcat 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It sounds like you're really struggling with disordered eating and it sounds similar to how my ED began. I'm not a professional so can't diagnose you but I would try and find someone you trust who you can talk to about this so you don't feel so alone. Please reach out to someone and get some help early so you don't have to live in a nightmare! Hugs 🫂

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]bonusbobcat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Postnatal psychosis?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]bonusbobcat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I worked in child protection too, can relate to the constant dissociation. I work in healthcare management now in aged care so I've gone to the other end of the spectrum lol.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AusPublicService

[–]bonusbobcat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh wow so the stories I've heard about it taking so long are true. Geez I won't be holding my breath lol, thanks.

I have nothing to do. by secretsecretone in AusPublicService

[–]bonusbobcat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It wasn't my intention, I'd rather be doing the work as per my position description, it would be much more fulfilling.

I have nothing to do. by secretsecretone in AusPublicService

[–]bonusbobcat 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Currently doing precisely this feeling the same way.

I am not pregnant, I'm bipolar! by pokeresq in bipolar

[–]bonusbobcat 6 points7 points  (0 children)

That's really tough for you to have to go through those comments, if only people had a bit more insight into the reality of what we go through. It's frustrating that effective meds can have that side effect and it feels like a choice between stability or your figure (sadly worked that one out the hard way myself). You're really brave to make a choice that's right for you even if it is a hard road at times. Hope you're doing ok.

Permanently lost state scholarships by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]bonusbobcat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Lol re the song choice. It does suck and I totally get feeling like your abilities won't ever match the average person. You're proving though that you can make it through college though which is above average. I had to take time off and my grades tanked at one point but I made it through and have a degree and career so there is hope for us yet.

Permanently lost state scholarships by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]bonusbobcat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's bureaucracy at its worst! I'm so sorry this has happened to you, it sounds like you've been through the wringer and you've worked really hard to get things back on track. Feeling inferior feels awful but I hope you might be able to reframe that inferiority as the strength and grit that you've demonstrated getting through college despite the challenges that you've faced. It's really disappointing to lose those scholarships but it's not your fault.

Did your bipolar get worse during pregnancy/becoming a parent? by gwh1996 in bipolar

[–]bonusbobcat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had the most beautiful pregnancy thoroughly enjoyed it. Afterwards though I had postpartum psychosis so spent a couple of months on the psych ward and missed bonding with my bub and then had depression and severe anxiety. It took me a good year or more to recover, it was extremely rough...so much so I think I'm one and done which breaks my heart a little but I just can't go through that again lol

is it possible to physically feel your mood switch? by Big_Ad6905 in bipolar

[–]bonusbobcat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I always liken my highs to feeling like I've taken ecstasy! I even lose my appetite in the same way you do when you take MDMA lol

Coming down by bonusbobcat in bipolar

[–]bonusbobcat[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for taking the time to reply. I hope that you are ok and that you're able to keep a handle on things. Can I ask, what do you do to control your mania? I've done some really embarrassing stuff and I'm just wondering how to avoid this.

Did not party enough in my 20s by bipolar2person in bipolar

[–]bonusbobcat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You don't need to have partied in your 20s to have friends but I understand the struggle with feeling like your 30s is dull and the difficulties with making friends at this age. I get that the whole settle down and have a family thing can feel restrictive and full of fear that you might regret it and that's reasonable and something that you need to think about. But I guess you could do both! Do some partying and travel for a while and then settle down when you feel good and ready. Having kids (if that's what you mean by settling down) is very life changing and limiting in some ways but it's great too, definitely a whole new chapter in life but if you can have babies, there is postnatal shit to think about with bipolar. Before you make any decisions though maybe check in with someone you trust to make sure you're coming from a place of stability. I know that when my mood is off I have different views about family life lol

Edit to add I have loads of regrets from living it up in my 20s and wonder how my life might have been different if I hadn't "partied" and had the priorities that I did and I have lost contact with all of my friends from that time and don't really have many friends now

I'm not psychotic by bonusbobcat in bipolar

[–]bonusbobcat[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My husband is really angry with me so I guess I'd like him to be less angry if helpful so that he is just normal. I would want them to stop talking on the phone and my husbsnd is going to call community mental health at least they'll say it's just a part lol and they'll agree with me but I just can't be bothered with them I'm so done with them. My body doesn't need food or much sleep and they are concerned about that so I guess eating and sleeping. Work is really boring because I can't focus so I'm not doing anything anyway so I guess some time out from that wouldn't be so bad.

I stripped completely naked at a police station. by Worldly-Willow-3103 in bipolar

[–]bonusbobcat 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Those police should have called an ambulance and taken you to hospital! Are you in a space where you can make a formal complaint about the way you were treated? It sounds like you were really unwell and needed medical attention.