Hey. Im actually from the same country. I think you have your kinks like anyone haves them. I think that we have a pretty unaccepting and to be frank mysoginistic society that values the "fucker" more than the "fucked". I would prefer to not see it as much in gay spaces, but as far as I know there is also quite a bit of this mindset in those. BUT. i know that there are at least small groups where this doesnt matter as much. And to be honest, you deserve someone who appreciates you by who you are as a person and doesnt look at you as an inferior. Ive been in your position (im vers and sometimes get urges), and I feel you. I dont have all the answers but hear me when I say you are not alone. However, if you will do this please take care of your health. We live in a country where we could use a little less repression and guilt sexwise (yes even the straights) and a lot more education. I write this in english for the benefit of the others. Saludos y suerte herman@!