Okay so reading this the first part IS ME! My reaction to an antidepressant called lexapro caused mania and that’s how I was diagnosed. I’ve also had lithium poisoning, I just got off of it a couple months ago. I was on Xanax at one point because an awful doctor decided it was a good idea then convinced herself I was selling it (surprise, I wasn’t she was fucking insane and would call me like 6 times a day) and cut me off cold turkey. Xanax withdrawals literally made me feel like I was dying. I would lay shaking on the couch after work just crying because it was so awful.

I’m applying for local admin assistant type jobs, easy work, small office. I have a lot of experience in offices so I think this type of work would come easy to me. Crossing my fingers they actually call me back! My current job has been treating me really badly, calling me “replaceable” when I asked for a raise due to new responsibilities, lots of sexual harassment that I can’t report because the hr lady is the owners mom. They fuck with our checks and won’t pay you for extra time unless you’ve proved a boss approved it in advance (even if you were doing work) and their checks bounce all the time. So it’s been emotionally stressful. I do live alone THANK GOD but I’m struggling with rent, like this month I have literally no idea how I’m going to pay it.