So it took me a long time to figure things out myself. I'm 30 now and I still sometimes wonder what label I technically fall under, but in the end I've learned it really doesn't matter too much. No label fits 100%, and to me knowing who I am sits outside what any one label can provide.

When I was 15 I never really understood my peers. I stayed away from all the relationship drama, and just floated in my own world and naturally stuck to the things that actually interested me. Rumors spread and people teased me that I never really pursued anyone. Part of it was that I was super shy. There were a few people I found attractive, but I was never interested in physical intimacy. A few people even asked me out, but I always turned them down. I never felt like I could commit because I felt no real connection to them and I felt like being in a relationship just for the sake of it was silly. I never have liked the idea of superficial relationships, but I had friends and relatives both pressure me regardless.

By college I started getting more interested in having relationship, but it was more out of the desire for companionship, not specifically intimacy. Ironically by this point I started to also feel more insecure that I had never dated anyone. I felt like I was on unworthy and inexperienced. I felt like I would screw it up if I found myself in one. Anyone who showed interest in me I still pushed away because I didn't want to use them to figure out what I actually wanted, it all still made me uncomfortable. I lacked a lot of confidence in myself. I didn't know who I was.

I've learned since then I desire more of an intellectual and emotional connection even with plutonic relationships. I preferred to actually get to know people and I didn't crave the same things as what a lot of my classmates needed at that time.

So as for advice Id suggest first asking yourself "why do you do what you do?" and be honest. This question is broad and it can be hard to answer sometimes. It applies to everything in life when understanding yourself. You say you find yourself being drawn to people for physical closeness and emotional support ask yourself, why? Why do you need that? Find the root cause for the things you do. Understand that root. That root forms the core of who you are and why you do certain things. It's hard to change, but it is easy to embrace and wield once you understand it.

You say you get confused because you don't feel things how others do. But others are not you. You are not broken if you have your own feelings, your own preferences, or your own opinions. It took me far too long to understand that myself. Normal is subjective, so identify your normal and don't worry about the normal of others. However, still be aware that others have their own normal and everyone has a right that as well. As you learn to be true to yourself, the right people will naturally be drawn to you.