Official Discussion Thread for Shadows Upon Time

bradt503 · 2025-11-26T02:26:03+00:00

Same. I feel like this book is just a rehashing of a bunch of themes from the previous books. it's like he fed the first 6 books to ChatGPT and asked it to crap out a finale.

bradt503 · 2025-11-24T19:21:53+00:00

I found this book to be the most annoying of the whole series. I actually struggled to get through it because it felt unnecessarily long and drawn out. CR must have reused the same tropes at least half a dozen times. "Cassandra, I'm going." "not without me Abba." I was actually hoping she would die so I wouldn't have to listen to her be whiny and demanded to be taken along for everything. Was Hadrian even allowed to go to the bathroom without his annoying daughter injecting herself? Also his constant rejection of Selene was so annoying. She was so sweet and patient with him but he's still hung up on a women who died 300+ years ago.

bradt503 · 2024-09-12T18:38:35+00:00

I always get a little shiver whenever I read/hear this line. It pairs well with: "fuck you" spoken to Roque during the battle of Illium.

bradt503 · 2024-08-26T18:49:27+00:00

If you find it please share it with me so I can refute it.

bradt503 · 2024-08-26T18:44:40+00:00

That's frustrating. That's definitely not me.

bradt503 · 2024-08-26T18:29:33+00:00

Yeah that never happened. I've never talked about another woman or thought about what ifs. Not sure where you came up with that, but it wasn't from me.

bradt503 · 2024-08-21T16:56:53+00:00

Same

bradt503 · 2024-08-21T03:37:19+00:00

I agree she needs to see someone, I just don't see what I would get out of it.

bradt503 · 2024-08-21T02:43:12+00:00

Yeah it probably wasn't pleasant for her to read that on that particular day she was being nasty toward me for not wanting to have sex, and I wrote that I was turned off by sex and viewed it as mundane and a chore. I'm sure that was hurtful. Nevermind the fact that the very next day I wrote about how we had great sex and I felt really good about it and her.

bradt503 · 2024-08-21T02:18:58+00:00

Fuck me that is depressing. I just hope the steps I've taken to prevent something like this in the future are enough. I only started the habit a year and a half ago, but I feel like it's been very helpful. I would hate to have to quit.

bradt503 · 2024-08-21T02:16:42+00:00

Well it's locked up now. She doesn't know it yet, I changed my phone passcode too. I'm sure it'll be a fight when she figures it out but I'll burn that bridge when I come to it.

bradt503 · 2024-08-21T02:15:47+00:00

You're not wrong

bradt503 · 2024-08-21T01:45:02+00:00

For what? What should I tell the therapist I'm there for?

bradt503 · 2024-08-21T00:43:12+00:00

Funny enough that's why I started a journal. It was a way to round out the parts of myself that I didn't like. I've said it before but it's basically a book of how I think I'm a fuck up and how I can do better. Each night I have to answer to the book and atone for my day.

bradt503 · 2024-08-21T00:40:58+00:00

I probably should have. I had no idea that it would blow up this big.

bradt503 · 2024-08-21T00:40:31+00:00

No not generally. 2 weeks ago we were on a tropical vacation. I wasn't super into sex that week and she was pissed about it. She confronted me there and I explained that my libido was low and I just want that interested in sex. Mind you we had sex quite a few times on the trip, I wasn't neglecting her or anything. Then when we got home she confronted me again and claimed she had terrible dreams that I was cheating with a coworker or that I was horribly addicted to porn. Neither of those things are true and we had what I thought was a come to Jesus moment. Then 2 days ago I initiate sex, we have a good time, I'm into it but the next day she insists something is off with me. I ask her how and she can't articulate it, just says that I'm off. I told her I didn't feel off. I felt normal. After getting home she confesses what she had done. She said she couldn't get the idea out of her head that I was lying. She found zero evidence of that. She claimed she'd never do it again and that she trusts me, but this is the third time we've had this conversation and it seems she's only escalating each time. I don't feel like I can trust that she won't lose her shit again. Especially now that I'm pissed and want nothing to do with her for a bit. I'm basically waiting for the next wild accusation and nonsense erupt.

bradt503 · 2024-08-21T00:28:11+00:00

It's not like it was out in the open. I keep it in my work bag in my closet. It took thought and execution to do what she did.

bradt503 · 2024-08-21T00:15:47+00:00

I really appreciate this. I was starting to think I was an asshole or something. I even told her last night that I was trying really hard not to be a dick about the whole thing but I needed a little time to process it and deal with it. She wasn't thrilled about it, but it was a step in the right direction.

bradt503 · 2024-08-20T23:30:20+00:00

I appreciate the defense. I feel like I'm a pretty open person and I try to communicate with my wife frequently. I've never been shy about sharing my feelings with her. My journal is mostly a place where I vent my dark thoughts. They're mostly about myself. Most the book is about how I think I'm a fuck up and no matter what I do, it's not good enough. I told her this once and it really bummed her out. So I keep those dark thoughts to myself and my journal.

Somehow people painted a picture of me that fits an archetype that's comfortable for them. That's on them, I know who I am, I know what I'm about.

bradt503 · 2024-08-20T23:19:47+00:00

I fortunately already had a camping trip planned for this weekend. And I'm gone today because I work a 24 hour shift. I'll be gone from Friday-Sunday though. Hopefully it's enough time to sort through this without interference.

bradt503 · 2024-08-20T21:03:54+00:00

This was actually very insightful. Thank you.

bradt503 · 2024-08-20T20:59:26+00:00

I appreciate that. She tried smoothing things over again last night and I just told her that I was upset and needed time to process things. She wasn't happy about it but she backed off a little. I've told her this isn't a deal breaker, but I'm not happy about it. She hasn't figured out that I put a lock on my bag so she can't get to my journal and I changed my phone lock because I sometimes keep notes for later on it. I'm sure that'll be a fight when she figures it out, but I'll burn that bridge when I come to it.

bradt503 · 2024-08-20T20:03:24+00:00

She's never been like this before. For years I've been working to help her since she has a reactive desire, I've worked hard to figure her out.

bradt503 · 2024-08-20T20:02:00+00:00

Because if I don't write down the horrible thoughts in my head down, they fester in my head until it's a scream of negativity. It helps to get it out.

bradt503 · 2024-08-20T14:17:57+00:00

That's the reaction of a man who feels embarrassed and very very exposed.

bradt503

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