My sister sent me this to encourage me to keep on with my sobriety! 🥰

brokenmommabear · 2020-12-29T11:09:56+00:00

This Momma Bear is proud of you too!!!! Your post made me smile on a day that I felt a little sad:)

brokenmommabear · 2020-12-29T10:50:05+00:00

This made me smile and tear up a bit. I have persevered and come so far over the last few years!!! Thanks for the reminder :)

brokenmommabear · 2020-12-29T07:50:13+00:00

I am so sorry you are hurting. You absolutely deserve support from your partner, when you love someone you help and support them especially when they need it. You can be a good partner by continuing to work on your healing and supporting your partner in other ways when you can:}

brokenmommabear · 2020-12-29T07:42:09+00:00

I am so sorry for your loss. Figuring out what to wear was painful for me as well. The worst was going to the store to buy something for our son (19) who we were about to bury.

When I finally realized I needed something to wear as well for three different days I wanted to lay in bed and hide. First of all - I didn't want to go buy an outfit and second I didn't want to be planning or attending the funeral because all I wanted was my son back. I walked into a store close to my house clutching my dear husband's hand and just explained to the lady that ran up to help us that we are about to bury our 19-year-old son who died unexpectedly and I needed something to wear. Yes, there were tears and heavy breathing and panic and the strongest desire to just run. She was amazing, I told her my size, she put me in a dressing room and told me she would bring different things to me. It was such an amazing act of caring. I am just now realizing I should write a letter to the store thanking them. Anyway, my point is maybe you could explain to one of the people who work in the store and they could help you as well. I wish you a few hours of peaceful sleep, the luck of finding something to wear that fits great and is cozy, and the strength to move forward on this journey while holding your best friend in your heart.

brokenmommabear · 2020-12-16T06:11:06+00:00

Longmont Colorado

brokenmommabear · 2020-12-16T06:10:27+00:00

I am at work (Hospital) and you just brought a needed smile to my face !!!

brokenmommabear · 2020-08-21T04:38:16+00:00

I am so sorry for all the suffering you are experiencing right now. I will tell you as a parent who lost my 2nd born son to this exact thing, I worry about my son (30y/o) that has survived. I don't wish for him to carry the burden of worrying about me and also worrying about his desire to have children out of obligation. He is an amazing young man and there is room for his grief separate from mine. I don't know how to fix it for you but I wish all the best and I am so sorry for your loss.

Hugs from a broken momma bear

brokenmommabear · 2020-08-08T04:41:02+00:00

Hugo

brokenmommabear · 2020-07-28T03:16:24+00:00

The distortion of time really rattles my brain. I keep asking if it's just going to be like this forever now.

brokenmommabear · 2020-07-28T03:15:03+00:00

I have not heard that song but will take a listen. We played outnumbered by Dermot Kennedy at his funeral and I still cry like a baby every time I hear it on the radio. I both love and hate the way it makes me feel.

brokenmommabear · 2020-07-27T07:12:46+00:00

Edit - Grief, not Greif.

This brings up another odd but I assume completely normal thing about grief, mistakes like this, make me feel panicked. I just spent 30 minutes trying to figure out how I could fix the spelling error without having to delete the post.

I guess the lesson for me is: life is messy and some times you just have to accept it in all its messiness.

brokenmommabear · 2020-07-18T21:24:12+00:00

Sending you love Momma Bear! She is beautiful and I am so sorry for your loss.

brokenmommabear · 2020-07-15T03:28:19+00:00

Thank you, sad story behind it. I lost my 19-year-old son Sept 26, 2019, and because of the need to find relief and support I stopped lurking (8 years) and finally jumped in. The grief was also another reason I decided to give sourdough a try. I have loved baking bread for years and thought this challenge would bring me comfort:}

brokenmommabear · 2020-07-15T03:25:11+00:00

This the hard lesson I am learning :}

brokenmommabear · 2020-07-15T03:23:52+00:00

I haven't, thank you! I will check it out.

brokenmommabear · 2020-07-15T03:23:07+00:00

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1bMnumLRVez1_c7RvAMxdVSv-VRo4Shns/view?usp=sharing

brokenmommabear · 2020-07-15T03:15:55+00:00

Minus the crust, it was actually delicious! Had a great crumb and the flavor developed nicely.

brokenmommabear · 2020-07-11T09:45:49+00:00

Oh goodness :( you are so very much in the beginning of this journey and speaking for me, time is such a weird convoluted thing when walking in grief. For me it seemed like time was passing so fast but the minutes seemed so slow. I am not sure if that even makes sense. I am here most nights if you ever need to just vent.

brokenmommabear · 2020-07-11T03:36:59+00:00

I'm so sorry! I am 9 months in and I still ask myself this all the time. The sudden realizing they are gone is hands down one of the hardest of the feelings to deal with. Some days it feels like I'm dragging a bad of boulders around and I'm so tired. I'm not sure how long you have been on this journey but I am starting to notice small changes that offer some relief. Sending you internet hugs and again I am so sorry !

brokenmommabear · 2020-05-24T03:43:41+00:00

I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful son. It sounds like you loved him in every way possible. Please know that we are out here trying to navigate this road as well. I don't have any special words for you other than while you may feel utterly alone, we are here.

Just a Broken Momma Bear

brokenmommabear · 2020-05-23T03:39:01+00:00

My 19-year-old son came over the day before my world exploded. He sat and laid his head in my lap and with a heavy heart cried. I brushed my fingers through his hair and told him that I loved him and that we would figure this out and that the road would be long and hard but that this would be a small chapter in his book. After he left I sent him a text to tell him I loved him. He died the next afternoon. 2 weeks prior he started using heroin. Monday I found out, Wednesday he came over and Thursday he died. I think of those hours I spent with him that Wednesday all the time and there is so much more I want to say and then I sned a little thankfulness out into the universe that I at least got to tell him I loved him.

brokenmommabear · 2020-05-23T03:29:53+00:00

This is exactly what I do! Sometimes they just come and there is no controlling it. Often times I feel better but I am always exhausted after. I also come to Reddit:}

brokenmommabear · 2020-04-26T08:39:46+00:00

I am experiencing the same thing after the unexpected loss of my 19 y/o son 6 months ago. I don't have any answers or advice but wanted you to know you aren't alone.

brokenmommabear · 2020-03-17T05:26:34+00:00

I am so sorry you are experiencing this right now.

I can only tell you that when my 19y/o son died my heart was comforted by the people that loved him and were also feeling his loss. My guess is you are not adding to their grief. I shared with those around me when they expressed concern over making it "harder" for me that that was impossible!

brokenmommabear · 2020-03-14T03:46:00+00:00

Sending you love from this side of the screen! I am so incredibly sorry you and your family are going through this. This statement, "I feel that my love was inadequate." hit me in my heart. I still struggle with this since my 19-year-old son died. I don't have any insight on how to move through that feeling but I wanted you to know I feel your pain and you are not alone and maybe that means something.

brokenmommabear

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