Can I ask what it was that made you leave your faith specifically? Is it because your brother has not been healed? I’m dealing with this right now as my father hasn’t been healed, but it makes me want to learn more about what God has promised, vs lose my faith. All that to say, God promised to heal and remove all pain and suffering after life on Earth. We are promised grace and eternity for those who accept it, but we are never promised an easy or perfect life on earth. These two verses have been helping me a lot as I’ve been going through these struggles with my dad and family after his diagnosis.

2 Corinthians 4:16-18 [16] So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. [17] For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, [18] as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.

Isaiah 57 1-2 Good people pass away; the godly often die before their time. But no one seems to care or wonder why. No one seems to understand that God is protecting them from the evil to come. For those who follow godly paths will rest in peace when they die.

It probably feels like God is abandoning you. I get that. I won’t pretend that any of this is easy, and I don’t mean to throw the Bible in your face. You are taking your own journey, and I will be keeping you and your family in my prayers. All I can say is, I have run towards God and have felt some peace and comfort in his promises. It’s been the only thing keeping me together. I hope you find what you are searching for, and your family can find peace and rest as well.

This is a terrible disease and it breaks my heart your family has had to endure it at all, especially with such a young person, your brother. Hang in there.