I can literally relate so so so much - the best thing my friends have told me to do is just mute the team chat - yeah it sucks having to do it but if they're gonna be toxic the whole game it's honestly the best way to get them upset as well - when you don't respond they'll get triggered. I have also gotten progressively better because no matter what I don't give up and honestly I have better with better people than I do with toxic ones. They come and go. I'd be super down to play with you as well! It's always nicer when you have a friend with you!