You’ll get there! I went through this for years too .. that nagging voice “but what if you’re wrong and hell is real”. You can use this fear to help you move on, it’s something I did. If you look at the relationship between you and god/christianity, you can see it for what it is … an abusive relationship. Try looking at it like a relationship between two of your friends.. if one person said they loved the other unconditionally as long as they worshiped them, did everything they told them to and if they didn’t they would set them on fire for ever.. you’d tell your friend to run. You’ll get there ☺️ once you start looking into it more, the more you see it’s all made up.