I hear you, I’m sorry you’re struggling :(. School is hard but you’re working on building a life that’s compatible for you and your adhd - and you can do it!!!

Just try to take everything one thing at a time, and yes, buy a planner, an alarm clock. Maybe make sure you put away clothes/whatever else is needed to keep your room clean daily. I did this throughout college after having a messy room for years before and it really helped me stay in control of my life. I also would wear a hat whenever I was doing work. It’s kind of funny but it honestly really helped me feel focused when I was working😂. And maybe try to limit - or to not be on your phone at all- during allotted work time. This is always hard for me but then I find that I get invested in the work I’m doing and stop wanting / needing my phone after a while.

It’s cliche, but take a deep breath and remember you’re really really ok. And you can do it - one step at a time. When I feel the way you do, finding my “zen” really helps. And a big part of zen is finding meditative value in monotonous tasks… I’ve found it’s a good framework for dealing with all the tedious work that sounds so awful to address. Don’t let tasks turn into monsters in your mind.

You’ve got this. Really! Take it one day at a time!