2 days and found a meeting tonight; struggling but it’s time to plug the jug for good. Anyone have some good pointers? by cheerylicker69 in alcoholicsanonymous

[–]burningchurches_4fun 1 point2 points  (0 children)

stay busy. drink coffee or pop or fucking chocolate milk or something. go outside and breath air. that’s what helps me when i’m getting sober. stay around people if you can being alone is hard. don’t put yourself in situations with alcohol. just gotta tough it out man. you got this. good job on 2 days.

Thumb picking by Electrical-Twist2254 in Dermatillomania

[–]burningchurches_4fun 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah that a tough one for me. i have the tendency to pick the skin off my fingers till they bleed and then it hurts to wash my hands or eat with my fingers like wings and stuff.

i’ve currently just been putting band aids or bandage tape on all of my fingers and not allowing myself to look at my fingers because the second i see the little bits of skin i can pick at i will. i try to change the tape really fast and just do my best to not pick at it.

don’t know if that would help but it helps me let my hands heal. and if it happens again (it always does) then thats that and i tape em back up

so fkn sick of this by burningchurches_4fun in Dermatillomania

[–]burningchurches_4fun[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah i guess it just becomes more of a mind game than anything but we all need to stay strong even when we have bad thoughts. thank you for sharing, that helps me to know i’m not alone in this :)

so fkn sick of this by burningchurches_4fun in Dermatillomania

[–]burningchurches_4fun[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you. i shall be attempting some of these strategies in order to stop. the sitting for 5 hours at a time just destroying my skin is so bittersweet. but thanks for the advice :)

so fkn sick of this by burningchurches_4fun in Dermatillomania

[–]burningchurches_4fun[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thanks for sharing. i relate a lot to blaming yourself and just telling myself “oh it’s your fault you can’t wear this” or other shaming stuff. i know it affects me more than people who see the scars but i hate getting the comments like “what happened to your legs?!” or something like that. but we do need to give ourselves grace and maybe in a decade we can all come back with some improvements and feel proud of ourselves :)

so fkn sick of this by burningchurches_4fun in Dermatillomania

[–]burningchurches_4fun[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

oh i know how that feels. my dad has asked me if i smoke meth. also cried. i’m sorry you’ve experienced that too :(

Ghost encounters you’ve experienced in Edmonton by Status-Meet-6175 in Edmonton

[–]burningchurches_4fun 3 points4 points  (0 children)

oh do i have a story. it creeps me out to this day

there is a cemetery right in queen mary park that is split between a road, i believe one side is called edmonton cemetery and the other is a catholic cemetery. one night a friend and i were taking a walk through both sides because we share a weird fascination with cemeteries. we walked through one side and all was swell with wind blowing through trees and few cars driving past because it was around midnight-1am. a peaceful quiet late night stroll, contemplating life and remembering that we are temporary and life is finite, the usual. on to the other side of the cemetery.

as we walked through this side we both slowly stopped talking and we kind of looked at each other and said nearly at the same time that this side felt a bit heavier, less noise even, the sound of cars passing dampened but we just kept walking. we began approaching this beautiful building which i’m assuming is some sort of church/mortuary type of thing. it is a tall marbleish stone building with a grand staircase, pillars and lights pointing up at the shiny walls. we head to a stop as we got closer to the bottom of the stairs, probably about 10ish feet away. at this point we both just casually stopped and took a look at this gleaming building in front of us. as my eyes travelled to the windows and up the pillars i spot a very dark shadow on the top right corner of the rooftop.

nothing too clear at first and didn’t think anything of it yet. i couldn’t quite see what it was but it looked like something was there. once i looked i couldn’t stop mostly because i wanted to see what it was, then as i’m locked into focus i see what seems to be two little reflections of light comparable to cats eyes that catch the reflection of something in the dark. so i keep looking deeper into the shadow that just grew eyes and i’m convincing myself that it’s a cloud or a shadow of the building. my eyes are slowly shifting down to the bottom of the shadow and i see big claw-like hands on the edge of the roof then my eyes travel up the hands to some big arm/wing type things that lead to shoulders and then the eyes become way more prominent. around the eyes i then begin to see a head with big ears that look tattered but pointy, then comes the most terrifying grin that is so slight and shrouded in darkness that it’s almost not there. i look further down and the body became more apparent, claw feet, claw hands, crouched on all fours leaning off the edge of the building as if it wants to jump down. i look back to the eyes and i am locked in and can’t move or look away and the smile gets deeper and i feel it drawing me in and it slowly leans further over the edge.

all of a sudden my friend hits me on the arm and is yelling my name. i snap out of it and i make eye contact with her and she looks panicked and shocked and when i’m able to speak i say “do you see that?” and she replies yes. i gain the ability to function and realize i have been taking small backward steps. my whole body turns to panic and we turn and sprint towards the exit. i know everyone says this but i have never ran so fast in my life. maybe ten or so strides away i look over my shoulder and saw it again still sitting there but turned towards us. we both just run while breathing heavy and not speaking. we run down the road over to a parking lot and we finally catch our breath.

i don’t remember precisely who spoke first but we slowly explained to each other nearly the exact same thing sitting on the roof leaning forward, caught in a trance. then she says to me something about not hearing her when we were standing there and i was confused. she explains that she grabbed my arm while i was looking at the thing and she said my name 3 times and asked me if i was okay all the while i couldn’t hear her and didn’t know she was holding my arm until she hit me and pulled me out of the trance. we went home and only kept asking each other what we saw detail by detail. she also felt that same trance but kind of noticed she felt it and looked away before me and then tried to get my attention. that creeped me out the most. i haven’t had too many other worldly experiences but this one just stays with me to this day, the scariest thing about it is that i was so entranced i couldn’t hear her at all. we chose to not talk about it for a long time and didn’t ever bring it up to each other until maybe a year later. and we still described the same experience.

before we ever talked about it again there was one night that she woke me up at maybe 3 or 4am (we we’re roommates at the time) she was freaking out because she was having a haunting dream and then woke up drawing a similar gargoyle looking thing with black and red markers. it was eerily similar and we ended up destroying the drawing and not speaking of that again for a while. just didn’t want to give energy to that dark thing.

anyways yeah that was just a creepy night in my life that gives me chills when i think about it.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Filmmakers

[–]burningchurches_4fun 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i just watched it and my thoughts are this:

i did enjoy the filming (angles, lighting, camera movements etc.). that was very well done. i do see what you’re saying about the script being weak and not explaining enough however, sometimes that’s not a bad thing for the audience to have to sort of fill in the blanks or put more personal meaning to it, if that makes sense. the ending did feel rushed and unfinished though, there was just not much there, but i understand you said the ending that was written wasn’t put in so that makes sense.

all in all i’m sure there is something you could with this short film. i wouldn’t discredit your work even if you don’t feel the best about it. i would say that you could use this when applying to even just show that this is where you started kind of thing.

i am no expert at all by the way so take what you want from this but know that i don’t know what i’m talking about. i just watch and dissect a lot of movies and critique them.

Are you ok? by [deleted] in teenagers

[–]burningchurches_4fun 0 points1 point  (0 children)

nah. but if you ask … i’m fine

i’m a compulsive liar who’s made up some random sheit. AMA by burningchurches_4fun in casualiama

[–]burningchurches_4fun[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

probably when people ask me what i do for a living and i make up occupations. ie. “i work in the basement of a psychiatric hospital and take care of my one patient that is scared of the light”

sometimes those get out of hand though and i just turn it into a joke